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 Journey To Fair Play

Alicia Jie Hye Lee

Genre : Aerospace Crime Fiction  

4/11/2022

Began to write in February 2022  . . 

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Again I Thank You . . Peace Be Within You . .  

Prologue 

Place I . . 
Have not even been . . 
Not even have seen is now a
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Place desperately I wanna  have to be . . 

 

To . . 
Unveil . . 
Bygone . . 
Wrong  . . 

 

8/4/2022

“I  wanna catch it . . Aunt  Yilainah  throw it . . ” A boy shouted as he ran toward a wide pastoral . . Then a woman who was following the boy mildly shouted back . . “Johzeln . . How  many  times  I have to tell you . . you need to throw it yourself . . and  then  catch  it  yourself . .” “I can’t . ." shouted out Johzeln as he continued to dash toward the pastoral . .  "whenever I throw it . . I miss it or get hit by it . . then you throw it . .  I catch right away . .”  “Please hurry Aunt Yilainah . . here stand  near  me and  then throw it . .”  “Alright  . .  alright . .”  said Aunt Yilainah . . And  without  a  doubt . . as she lightly  threw  the  boomerang  away . . did the boomerang fly and fly . . and  as  it  flew  and  flew  right  back  toward  where they stood . . did Johzeln . . catch . . the  boomerang  right  beside  his aunt . . “Yay . . caught it . .” shouted Johzeln with in full  joy . . “Now Johzeln . . to throw and catch a boomerang is a skill which requires specific techniques and plenty of practice . . throw at eye-level . . lower your body a little bit like the time when you surf . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . "you  gotta  be peaceful whenever a boomerang flies fast toward you . . take a deep breath . . be prepared of  which  way  you  are gonna  head  to grab it in advance . . am  not  gonna  be  by  your  side  lifetime . . Johzeln . . ” Johzeln . . looked at his Aunt . . and looked . . then with a little hesitation  grabbed the boomerang . . and slowly carefully posed the way his Aunt told him to . . and after Johzeln slowly took a deep breath . . vigorously tossed the boomerang . . yet . . as he threw it . . Johzeln  felt  himself  thrown  into enigmatic  panic  again  with  a cold sweat . . and as he gazed  the boomerang  fly  across  and  across and then . . see it heading right toward him . . faster and faster . . closer and closer . . Johzeln alarmed with fear and panic instantly shouted and began to dash away as fast as he could from the boomerang  . . “Johzeln . .” cried out Aunt Yilainah as loud as she could . . as the boomerang nearly hit Johzeln . .  Aunt Yilainah instantly blocked the boomerang . .

8/12/2022

Johzeln . . was a 12 year old school boy who lived with his aunt ever since he was 1 year old . . His parents passed away in an accident . . and because his parents passed away when he was a child . . sadly Johzeln did not have any memories about his dear parents except the faces Johzeln knew through the photos his aunt Yilainah gave him . . Yilainah . . age 44 . . aunt of Johzlen was . . an astronaut . . a payload specialist and . . a space law researcher mainly concentrated on the subject of space debris . . and because Yilainah was a space law researcher . . whenever Yilainah had time . . she attended conferences . . podcasts . . radio talk events to talk about the countries that are experiencing injustice due to the increasing unidentified space debris that are gradually causing problems to both the international stations & spaceships and especially astronauts . .

8/16/2022

“Johzeln . . tune into the podcast at 8 pm . .” lightly shouted out aunt Yilainah as she was about to head out the door . . Johzeln as he dashed toward the front door cried out . . “Was it tonight . . Yay . . my teacher and my classmates liked the report I wrote about the space debris aunt Yilainah . . and remember to enunciate that way I won’t miss a word you say . .” “Alrightyroo spaceman . . I fixed a bit of my and your favorite cherry shake with yogurt and walnut for a snack . . and  if  I  am  not home before 11 . . zone out . . ”  said  aunt  Yilainah  with  a  smile  as she  stepped  out  the  door . . “I  will  aunt  Yilainah” answered  Johzeln  with a smile too as  he saw his  aunt off  . . and  as  soon  as  aunt  Yilainah  was out of sight . . Johzeln  elated . . hurriedly grabbed his phone and cherry shake with yogurt and walnut with a cup of water and dashed to his room . . carefully put them on his desk . . turned on his phone  and adjusted the volume . . and as  he  was  about  to take a sip of the cherry shake . . a bell rang from his phone . . He grabbed his phone and checked . . It was one of his classmates . . He began to text back and forth . . He texted when to tune  into  “Space Podcast Real Talk ”  to listen to his  aunt  Yilainah  speak  as  a  guest expert . .  and  after a few text exchange . .  He looked  at  the  clock  on  the  wall as he took a sip  of the cherry shake . . He waited and waited for the clock to strike 8 pm . . At last . . “Space Podcast Real Talk” . . began . . “Hello  everyone  welcome to ‘Space Podcast Real Talk’ . . I am . . " "Alright alright . . Let's begin . ." said Johzeln thrilled . . "and Now . . ” “Yay . .” shouted out Johzlen with full excitement . . “We will be right back after these commercials . .” Johzlen  looked at his phone with disappointment . . “why . . why . . ” grumbled Johzlen to himself . . as  he  threw himself on his bed tossed and turned . . and . . how many minutes passed . . “We will now invite our ‘Space Podcast Real Talk’ guest for tonight Ms. Yilainah Leah . . Hello . .” Johzlen   exhilarated  quickly  sat  on  his bed and adjusted the volume again a little . . and leaned on to his phone . .” “and your comment to that Ms. Leah will be . .” “Thank You . . I Agree . . These days due to space debris  . .  though the countries are not at fault and merely because the countries were involved in the accident . . they are to compensate the damages and  injuries made due to the accident because currently there are no mechanical device to hold the unidentified defendants responsible  for  the  damage  incurred to the victim states . . which is very unfair to both the countries and to their economy . . The problem is  that  these  accidents  are occurring  frequently  and  there  is no  actual law that could stop the unfairness . . I believe it is a very serious issue because these space  debris  is  in  increase  every  single  day though there is no current collision between the objects . .” “Yes That is correct . .” shouted  out Johzlen on and on . . on and on . . how many minutes passed . . Johzeln slowly felt  the podcast was  about to end for he could hear the finish line by the podcast speaker . . and as he drank the last water drop from his cup . . he tiredly  lied  down  in  his  bed  with  a little  joyful  stretch  and  then looked out  the  window  next  to  his  bed . . he  looked  at  the  bright  night sky . . he  looked  and  looked . . and   smiled . . and  then  exhaustedly  yawned . . he  slowly   felt  himself  head  for  a journey . . as . . an  adult  Johzeln . .   a Journey that felt . . like a deja vu . . yet . . a dream . . yet . . is it . . 

8/26/2022

 

Johzeln . . when he turned 16 . . and whenever his Aunt Yilainah had time to spend time with him . . Because Aunt Yilainah was an austronaut . . once in a while . .  went either for sky glider ride . . or fighter jet ride . . At one Friday early summer night . . Aunt Yilainah decide to take Johzeln for a fighter jet ride as she did once in a while . .  however Johzeln was especially excited for the ride tonight compared to the ride in the past . . because in the past they usually went for rides in the afternoons . . Aunt Yilainah while driving toward the local airport . . looked at Johzeln who was looking out the window with full excitement . . Aunt Yilainah then said as she looked back at the road in front of her . . “Johzeln . . you enjoy the ride . . yet always remember to listen to me through the headset while you ride in the back seat . . in case of an urgent emergency . .” “no worries Aunt Yilainah . . You are the Boss . .” said Johzeln as he looked at his aunt with a full smile . . and then quickly looked back out the window . . and then . . slowly looked above the night sky . . Johzeln looked at the sky for a while . . and then he excitedly said while looking at the sky . . “Aunt Yilainah . . I cannot wait to sit in the backseat of your jet and . . fly . . fly . .” and then looked at his aunt . . Aunt Yilainah smiled and quietly eyed the road . . “and then . .”  abruptly said Aunt Yilainah . . “Huh . .” said Johzeln . . a little puzzled by her sudden words . .  “I mean . . is that it  Johzeln . . are you only gonna sit in the backseat of the jet . . won’t you wanna fly a plane yourself . .” Johzeln surprised by her sudden words . . slowly turned his face toward the road and looked at the direction she was looking at . . and then looked at the night sky . . he looked at the sky for a while . . then . . turned to his aunt and cautiously said . . “I . . I am not sure Aunt Yilainah . . I fear . . I mean . . the thought of heading toward the sky me flying the plane  . . kinda freaks me out . . ”  Aunt Yilainah . .  quietly listened . . a minute of silence . . Johzeln a little worried of the thought that he might have upset his aunt again carefully said . . “Aunt Yilinaha . .” “Johzeln . .” called Aunt Yilainah still looking at the road . . another minute of silence . .  “Johzeln . . listen to me and listen to me good . . the fear you mentioned . . is it the same fear as you fear the boomerang heading toward you . . is it the same fear you fear when a wave heads toward you when you surf . . is it the same fear you fear when you get closer to the land from the sky glider ride . . is it the same fear you fear to experience without me beside you . . Johzeln . . I like spending time with you . . yet . . you have to learn how to be independent without the fears . . have to try these activities by yourself . . Johzeln . . all we need to fear is fear itself . . you have to conquer your fears . . Are you gonna live with fears for the rest of your life . . No Johzeln . . You Cannot . . you have to try to conquer those deep fears inside you . . How many times did I tell you I am not gonna be by your side all the time . . ”

 

Johzeln . . astonished by the tone of Aunt Yilainah . . slowly looked down toward the road . . felt . . unconscious hurt permeate deep down into his heart . . yet not to disappoint Aunt Yilainah . . tried to smile and said cheerfully . .  “I will definitely try . . Aunt Yilainah . . I . . will . .” and hurriedly looked out the window . . tried to calm himself  . . yet the sudden hurtful pain permeated deeper and deeper into his heart . . followed by little tears filled in his eyes . . “Good . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she slowly drove into the parking lot of the local airport . .

9/2/2022


Johzeln pushed the first floor button of the elevator his Aunt Yilainah behind him . . and as soon as the elevator hit first floor and the elevator door slid to the right . . Beautiful night light scene of the calm airport filled his eyes . . and suddenly “whoosh” flew a jet airplane pass right before him . . Johzeln suddenly got excited . . He naturally felt the dismal feel gradually fade away within him . . Then . . he started to dash and dash toward the lighted runways . . Aunt Yilainah calmly looked at Johzeln . . did not stop him . . It seemed like Johzeln knew where he was heading to for it was not his first time at the airport . . Johzeln dashed toward several hangars that were aligned side by side . . Johzeln dashed and dashed . . until he stopped in front of one hangar . . As he panted trying to catch his breath . . he turned back and looked at his aunt who was walking toward him . . and as Aunt Yilainah arrived where Johzeln was . . she patted Johzeln on the head and walked toward the access door . . unlocked it . . went in with Johzeln following behind her . . and as she closed the access door . . she turned on the top lights . . and there she walked toward a lighted locker where her G-suit . . life preserver jacket . . harness . . fighter helmet . . along with the harness and the figter helmet of Johzelns were at . . Aunt Yilainah carefully unlocked the locker . . took a harness . . gloves . . and helmet out and passed them to Johzeln . . because it was not his first time . . as soon as he took them . . Johzeln put his harness on as he put his backpack on . . and then clipped several straps that were hung on the harness . . and then he wore his gloves . . then Johzeln began to wear his fighter helmet which always felt a little tight whenever he wore it because of the headset that was attached both sides of the helmet . . despite . . to make himself comfortable with the helmet as he always did he continued to push and turn push and turn until he got comfortable . . and then he tied the attached chin strap to the other side of the flight helmet and clipped . . and finally . . had his respirator mask . . clipped . . Aunt Yilainah already finished wearing her uniform and equipment on was quietly waiting for Johzeln to finish his . . and as soon as she saw Johzeln had his fighter helmet respirator mask on . . Aunt Yilainah smiled winked at Johzeln as she approached to the hangar door to release the bolt arm from the door . .  

 

“YaY . .” shouted  out  Johzeln as he followed  his aunt right behind  . . and as Aunt Yilainah pushed the door forward . . there it was . .  the grey fighter jet . . Johzeln as soon as he saw the fighter jet . . ran toward it while his aunt walked toward the center of the door to unlock the door by controlling the drop pin . . and then went from the left corner to the right corner to release the bolt arm from each hangar door . . and then  finally pressed  the  button  near  the  right  door  to  draw  each  hangar  to  head  upward . . and there . . Johzeln and Aunt Yilainah saw the beautiful night light brightly shine in the midst of the darkness . . Johzeln who got excited hurriedly ran toward Aunt Yilainah and waited for Aunt Yilainah to  help  him  get on  board on the fighter jet . . “Alrighty . . let’s carefully have you on board . .” Johzeln excited  yet  cautiously  climbed  up  the  pilot ladder  that  was  hung  on  the  side  of  the  jet . . and carefully went into the back seat of the jet and sat . . “seat belts . .” “and  connect  the wire of  the  mask  and  the  headset  to  the  connector and cord that is part of your seat . . ” said Aunt Yilainah a little bit out loud . . Johzeln . . carefully  buckled  his  seat  belts and  then  connected  each  item  to  the connector . . “I am all set Aunt Yilainah . .” shouted out Johzeln with a beam . . Aunt Yilainah before she got into the front seat . . walked up the ladder of the back seat . . checked confirmed checked confirmed . . “Good job Johzeln . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she patted his helmet and shoulder . . and then . . attentively  got  down  walked  up  the  ladder  that  was  attached on the side part of her front seat and got herself in the front seat . . and as soon as she got in . . she began to activate a number of lighted switches in the cockpit that was prepared to lit . . and after every switch has been activated . . finally . . Aunt Yilainah switched on the last . . where  the canopy  begin  to  direct  low and low . . until  it  shut  totally . . Johzeln  felt  his  heart begin  to  beat  with  full  thrill  and  exuberance . . “Alright  Johzeln  can you hear me . .” “Yes . .” shouted out loud Johzeln immediately with  full excitement as soon as  he clearly heard  his  Aunt Yilainah  through his headset . . “Good . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . and there the fighter jet began to slowly  head  straight  and straight  out  of  its  hangar home . . toward  the  airstrip  that  was endlessly . . brightly lit . .
 

9/11/2022

As the fighter jet slowly entered the airstrip . . stopped . . and then another minute of wait time . . Then . . with the radar signal from Air traffic controller . . “whoosh” . . the fighter jet began to accelerate its speed . . through the runway did it glide and glide . . faster . . and faster . . and  in  no  time . . up up it went . . “Johzeln  hold  on . . there will be lots of turn and dive . . ” shouted out Aunt Yilainah . . as the jet continued to fly up toward the beautiful night sky . . away and away from the coast . . head toward the last shade of  bright sunlight filled with endless sea of beautiful clouds where  it  felt  like  no  darkness  could  ever  exist . . on  and  on . . did the jet flew and  flew . . “Hold on Johzeln . .” shouted out Aunt Yilainah  . . then did the jet dive down and down toward the land . . “Whoa . .” shouted Johzeln as  he saw the Earth turn  upside  down  and  upright  and  away . . again and again . . “Are you alright Johzeln . .” shouted out Aunt  Yilainah  after a couple of turn  and dive . . “uh . . I mean . . Yes . .” shouted Johzeln . . “Are  you  not  scared . .” Aunt  Yilainah shouted back . . “A little . .  yet . . I could take it . . I could . .” shouted Johzeln as he felt the plane was now flying straight ahead . . “That is right Johzeln . . You are not scared . . There will be lots of turns and dives ups and downs in life as it is now . . Yet  inasmuch  as  you pull yourself together and push on straight forward . . with your positive mind and attitude . . as we are now . . one step at a time Johzeln . . you  will  be alright . . your fear . . it will  fade  away . . and away . .” with that Aunt Yilainah shouted out loud . . “Johzeln can you Push on and Pull whenever fear confronts you . . can You . .” Johzeln . . surprised by the sudden shout out by his Aunt Yilainah . . and not sure whether he could or not . . however felt like he did wanna . . at least he wanna try to . . by himself . . no matter how much how often the sudden fear tries to let him feel helpless . . no matter how much how often the sudden fear he confront tries to erase his way . .  yes . . he truly wanted to . . and he is gonna . . he . . is . . gonna . . “YES . . ” shouted out Johzeln with all his might . . as  though  he desperately wanted  to  throw away his deep fears . . throw away his incomprehensible heavy heart placed deep down inside him . . “Yes . .” did Johzeln shout out again and again . . and with  his enliven buoyant shout out . . up went the jet . . into peacefully endlessly light embellished beautiful night sky . . 

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9/21/2022

 

Then appeared . . a  beautiful   celestial-like  night  sky . . a night sky  that  was  too  clear  to  be  true . . “Johzeln . . space  is  such an amazing  place . . though  I  am  in  space  and  while  I  am  at  work . . I  try  to  enjoy  feel  it as much as I could because I know I will miss it . . and . . I know it could be my last time . . to see and feel it near . . and its far beyond . .” “Johzeln . .” called out Aunt Yilanah . . “Yes . . Aunt  Yilainah . .” answered  Johzeln . . “Johzeln   after   I   pass . .   like  my  remained   ash . .   to   be  slowly   spread . . in   faraway   space   yes . . ”  Johzeln . .  halted . .  was   astounded . .  astounded   by  the  genuine  tone  of  Aunt  Yilainah . . Johzeln  slowly  looked  at  the  front  seat . . he  looked  and looked . .  Life . . without  his  Aunt  Yilainah . . is   life  that he  has  not  in  the least  considered  once . . life   which   seemed  to   be   too  far   away   to  be  real . .  too   difficult   to  live . .  alone . .  Johzeln . .  looked  the  other  way . .  again . . felt   sudden   hurtful   pain . .  permeate  deep  down  into  his  heart . . deeper  and  deeper . . until  tears . . imbued in  his  eyes . . his  heart . . as  his  future  seem  to  fade  away . . further  and  further  away . . and  as  the  jet  begin  to  head  down  down toward  the  coastland . . Johzeln . . with  a  heavy  heart . . slowly . . looked   up  and  up  the  sky . . and  a  little  further  above  and  above . . and beyond . .

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9/29/2022

Johzeln  . . as  he  walked  toward   front  of  the  elevator   pushed  the  basement  floor  button  his  Aunt  Yilainah  behind  him . . and  as soon  as  the  elevator  hit  the  basement  floor and  the  elevator  door  slid  to  the  right . . there  he  saw  Ayhilina  . . a  classmate  who Johzeln  had  a  huge  hearts  for  at  school . . “Johzeln . .”  called  Ayhilina  “hey   Hey . .”  hesitantly  called  out  Johzeln  with  sudden  pulse rise . .

Ayhilina . . as she then saw Aunt Yilainah right behind Johzeln greeted her happily . . “Hello . . Ms. Leah . .” “Hello Ayhilina . .” Aunt Yilainah greeted back and said . . “Are you here to practice for pilot license . . isn’t it too late . .” “No . . I briefly stopped by to rearrange my equipment for my next practice . . uh Ms. Leah by the way . . Would you mind I stop by tomorrow to inquire as to the FAA Private Pilot Test . . ” “Absolutely not Ayhilina . .  Wait . . however let’s make that next week . . I will be in train for a few days at the AIHE Space Center before I take off two weeks later . .” “Right right . .” said Ayhilina abruptly with full excitement . . “You are to head outer space for your last space mission . . soon . .” Ayhilina then all of a sudden quietly looked at Aunt Yilainah . . and said . .  “It will be your last visit to the International Space Station . .” “Yes I am 48 years old now . . it is about time . . ” said Aunt Yilainah with an awkward smile and a little sigh as she slowly looked down . . Ayhilina suddenly felt regret that she mentioned that . . and to change the subject Ayhilina abruptly said . . “Did you guys fly . . How was it . . ” Aunt Yilainah . . with her sudden words . . gave a light push to Johzeln to talk . . astonished by the sudden nudge by his aunt . . Johzeln awkwardly with a perplexed smile . . said . . "wa . . wa . . Was . . Good . .” “Were you sitting at the back . .” said Ayhlina as she smiled at Johzeln . . Johzeln . . all of a sudden . . felt his face turn red in embarrassment . . “He did . . yet he said he wants  to  learn  how to fly soon . . didn’t you . . Johzeln . .” said  Aunt  Yilainah  as  she  gave  his shoulder  another  little  nudge . . “Are you serious Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina to Johzeln with amaze . . Johzeln baffled abruptly looked at Aunt Yilainah who was looking at Johzeln with a smile and said . . “well I will be at the garage Johzeln . . Ayhilina  I  will  see you soon next week . .” “Yes . . Thank You . . I will call in advance and briefly stop by early next week . . again Thank You . .” answered  Ayhilina  as  she  saw  off  Aunt  Yilainah . . Johzeln  still  bewildered perplexed continued  to stand still . . “Johzeln Are  you serious . . are you gonna learn how to fly . .” said Ayhlina as she turned back to Johzeln . . Johzeln . . reluctantly tried to smile . . then  looked  at Ayhilina  with  a  continued  awkward  smile  and  said . . “Y . . yes . .”  “That  is  amazing  Johzeln . . We could later be best pilot buddies . .” happily shouted out Ayhilina . . “Y . . yes . .” repeated Johzeln with a sudden genuine smile on his face because of the thought that he could be best pilot buddies with Ayhilina not knowing whether it could even happen or not . . “Good . . Well . . I gotta head to my hangar . . see  you  again  soon  at  pilot  practice  Johzeln . .” said  Ayhilina as she turned to head out . . “Prom Night . .” abruptly shouted out Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . a little bit surprised by the sudden shout . . stopped and looked back at Johzeln . . Johzeln baffled and bewildered felt his face now turned full red . . yet because he did not wanna miss his chance that is now given before him again shouted out even louder . . “I mean . . Tuesday  is  Prom Night . . can . . can you consider to be My Date for the prom Ayhilina . . ” Ayhilina turned and looked back at Johzeln . . she looked at Johzeln for a little while . . then with a regretful tone cautiously said . . “Johzeln . . Filiahn already asked me out weeks before . .” Johzeln . . stood still . . Filiahn . . is one of the popular guys at school . . Johzeln . . instantly felt . . his body hit by a thunder . . his breath halt by heavy air . . his heart struck by a bullet . . his  mind  blank  by  her  words . .  “Johzeln . .” “Johzeln . .” called  out  Ayhilina . . “Are  you  alright . .”  Johzeln . . regretted and regretted . . it happened too fast . . he should not have . . Johzeln still out of his mind became restless wanted to disappear . . “Johzeln . .” called Ayhilina again . .  “it is not a date night . . it is one good prom night . .” “Let’s hang out altogether . .” said  Ayhilina  with  a  heartfelt  smile . . Johzeln  tried and tried to pull  himself  together tried to act as though he was alright . . forced himself to look at Ayhilina and nod with a smile . .  however . .  Ayhilina  could  feel  his  hurtful  helpless  look  remained  intact  despite his smile . .  “Johzeln . .” said  Ayhilina  as  she looked at him . . “I am gonna  request  my  favorite  slow  dance  music  to  the  DJ  like  rest  of  the  students  at  slow  dance  time . . ” Johzeln who  was  still  trying  to  calm  his  unsettled state of mind . .  slowly looked at Ayhilina  a bit surprised . . “See You Again Soon . . Tuesday Johzeln . . at slow dance time . . take care . . ” with that Ayhilina slowly walked out toward the airport toward her hangar . . and as she continued to walk Ayhilina looked back at Johzeln gave him a warmhearted smile . . Johzeln  stunned  absentmindedly  looked  at  Ayhilina  with his  revived heartbeat  suddenly  felt . . as . . his  heart  pierced  by  an  arrow . . his  mind  filled  with blessed  gratitude . . his  body  reawakened  by  an  angel . . his breath  filled  with  sunset  kiss . . Johzeln  looked  and  looked  at  Ayhilina  walk  toward  her  hangar  until  Ayhilina was wholly out of sight . . then quietly said to himself with his ceaseless heartbeat still beside . . “See You Again Soon . . at slow dance time . .”

10/11/2022

Johzeln was a little early at school . . Tuesday At Prom Night . . Johzeln stood in front of the Prom Room . . a grand room covered with heavenly clear mirrors on each and every wall . . gracefully embellished with beautiful colorful pastel chandeliers above . . filled with celestially vivid light above spread across the huge venue . . a grand room that was about to be filled with lively hearts . . Johzeln . . slowly went into the prom room . . on his dark grey pair of loafer . . grey wool silk suit and white shirt inside . . with a burgundy color tie within . . Nobody was in yet a party music was on as though it wanted to get the party started . . Johzeln slowly went in and walked toward a desk where the prom name tags were aligned . . Johzeln looked . . and there he found his name tag . . “Johzeln Leah” . . Johezeln held it clipped it on his right pocket . . then . . he carefully looked at the desk again . . looked and looked and . . there he found her name tag . . “Ayhilina Ineznahl” . . Johzeln looked at it for a while . . “See You Again Soon . . at slow dance time . .” her blissed calm shoutout . . that made him enliven . . that Johzeln held on . . until now . . Johzeln . . calmly . . looked and looked at her name tag . . “Johzeln  . .” suddenly a loud call from afar startled Johzeln . . Johzeln  astonished  hurriedly  turned . . one of his classmates  with a group of students walked in . . “you are here early . . nice suit there pal . .” called out one of his other classmates with a smile as he and a few gave him a brotherly pat on his shoulder and a brotherly light punch on his back as the group passed by him . . “Th . . Thanks . . same to you guys . .” said Johzeln with an awkward smile as he nearly tripped because of the sudden unexpected near encounter . . “again . . Thanks . .” called out Johzeln as he kept his balance and cleared his throat . . “stay calm . . stay cool” said Johzeln to himself as he cleared his throat again and then looked at the near mirror on the wall . . Johzeln looked at the mirror and then begin to straighten his tie as he held his head high try to feel confident . . and then confidently sprayed in his mouth  . . a cherry raspberry scent mixed breath freshner spray . .

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“Ayhilina . . How are you . . ” Johzeln . . all  of  a  sudden . . heard . . from  afar . . as he was about to inhale the breath spray he sprayed . . He  instantly . . felt . . his eyes turn wide . . his ears turn pink . . his cheek turn red . . his mouth in shock . . Johzeln begin to choke . . and cough . . harder and harder . . “I am very Well and Good . .” said  Ayhilina  with  a  bright  smile  as  she  greeted  her  classmates  and  walked  in  the  room  with  . . Filiahn . . “Who  is  that guy . . is he alright . .” one of the classmates said as she looked at a boy who looked as though he was seriously sick . . with that . . Everyone in the  grand  room  looked at . . Johzeln . . Ayhilina  slowly  looked  too . . “Is that . . Johzeln . .” said  one  of  the  classmates  with  a laugh . . “already drunk . .” said  the  other  classmate  with another  laugh . . Ayhilina  surprised  worriedly  looked  at  Johzeln . . “Johzeln . .” called out  Ahyilina  and  begin  to walk  toward  him . . Filiahn  who  was  drunk  already  said  as  he  loosened  his  extragavant  tie . . “who  cares . . ” then  looked  toward  Ayhilina  forcefully  stopped  her and  grabbed  her  in the waist  and sternly said . . “where  are  you  headed . . ” Ayhilina who  instantly  felt  uncomfortable  said . . “Filiahn . .  stop  it . .”  and  tried  to  get  away  from  him . . however  Filiahn  nonchalantly again  forcefully  grabbed  Ayhilina  closer  to  him  even  harder . . with  a  lustful  grin . . then  said . . “I  will  grab  you  a  drink  Ayhilina  . . you  be  right here . .” and  then  headed  toward  where  the  drink  snack  table  was  followed by a  group  of  students . . Ayhilina . . suddenly  again  felt  uncomfortable  and  weary . . wanted to be alone . . wanted to be home . . and then . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhlina remembered  Johzeln . . Ayhlina  turned  and  looked  at  Johzeln  who  was  still  in  the  middle  of  the  corner . . Johzeln  was  now  nearly calmed  from  his  hectic  choke-cough  situation . . “Johzeln . .”  Jozeln  suddenly  heard  his  name  called . . Johzeln . .  slowly  turned . . and  there  was  Ayhilina . .  with  her  golden  silver . . neutral  flats . . her  LV  burgundy  purse . .  with  her  silver  golden . . bodycon dress . . her light heart Necklace . . 

Johzeln . . felt . . heart . . beat . . felt his eyes stop . . felt his body becalmed . . Johzeln . . now felt . . his heart . . race . . however Johzeln . . felt peace . . felt comfort . . It seemed like he . . was here before . . It seemed like he . . felt the same  peace and comfort before . . right here . . yet couldn’t remember when . . “Johzeln . . I brought you a glass of water . . are you alright . .” Johzeln . . without a word looked at Ayhilina . . “Johzeln . . are you  .  . Alright . .” said Ayhilina again . . now a little worried . . “Y . . Yes . .” answered Johzeln who noticed the glass of water in front of him . . Johzeln . . hurriedly and thankfully . . took it . . “Thank You . . Ayhilina” . . Ayhilina smiled and slowly began to walk toward the drink snack table . . Johzeln . . as he saw Ayhilina walk away . . felt his mouth dry . . Johzlen hurriedly drank gulps of water from the glass . . quickly took out his breath freshner spray and sprayed . . then instantly shouted out . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina . . stopped and . . slowly turned and looked back at Johzeln . . “I . . I . .”  Then . . all of a sudden . . lights . . turned off . . and a second later . . the Lights . . one in the middle . . two on the sides . .  turned on . . begin to spread its colorful pastel bright Light across the grand room . . and then all of a sudden . . Huge curtain at the back of the room went up slow pace . . and there appeared a number of band members with a neon sign at their back written . . “Hello Prom Night Dates” . . “Now Slow Dance Time” . . and then went on the neon sign . . “you Always with me here Together . . though We fall apart in Life  . . let’s Remember our memories deep Within . . every Time you will be Missed . .”

Then the slow dance music started to play . . the students in the venue fully applauded with joy and started to gather in the middle of the stage and began to dance with their partners . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . Johzeln because he did not wanna miss  his  chance that is given right before him bravely walked to Ayhilina and said “Ayhilina would you please dance with me . .” Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . and smiled . . “Yes . .” with that . . Johzeln again . . felt . . his body awakened by an angel . . his heart hit by an arrow . . his mind filled with blessed gratitude . . his breath filled with sunset kiss . . “stay calm . . stay cool” reminded Johzeln to himself . . and with his  endless  heartbeat  by  his  side . . as  Ayhlina  walked  closer  to  Johzeln . . Johzeln  bravely walked closer to her . . held her . . close . . as Ayhlina held Johzeln . . and there . . they began their little slow dance . . Johzeln as he felt his heart race . . slowly looked at Ayhilina . . where their eyes met . . Johzeln . . felt . . his  heart  pound  like  persistent  waves  against  the  cliff  . . his  heart  pound like  wings  of  a  bird head to high mountain . . Johzeln  to  calm  himself  looked  above  the  Light . . and  then  suddenly  felt . . Ayhilina give him a nudge on the shoulder . . Johzeln . . abruptly  yet  shyly  looked  at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina smiled . . Johzeln . . looked . . Ayhlina again . . smiled . . Johzeln . . as he felt his face turn red . . his ear turn pink . . shyly smiled  . . and suddenly . . felt . . the  same peace and comfort Johzeln felt before . . yes . . right here . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . and again . . smiled calmly at her . . within  peace . . within  comfort . . and then . . said . . “You Look Beautiful Ayhilina . . ” Ayhlina looked at Johzeln and gave a little giggle and said . . “You Too . . ” with that . . Johzeln  beamed  with  full  joy  from  the  bottom  of  his  heart . . gently dreamily held Ayhilina  closer  and  closer  as  they  slowly  danced . . To Johzeln right now there was nobody else in the room yet he himself  and Ayhilina . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  smiled  and  smiled as  they  Timelessly  and Joyfully danced . . and . . as  they  held  on  to each other closer . . and  as  they  heartedly  looked at each other . . closer and closer . . they . . kissed . . right below the vivid  bright  light . . as the music went on and on . .

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11/27/2022

Heavenly  Time . . Again  and  again  on and on the music went . . Time passed . . slow dance . . slowly began draw to a close . .  pastel lights . . slowly  quietly  began to fade away  yet . .  Johzeln and Ayhilina  still  within  their  time  close  to  each  other . .  quietly looked at each  other close as  though time has stopped . . However  suddenly a  loud  yell  was  heard  from  afar  as  it  got  nearer  and  nearer . .  Then . .  all of a sudden . .  Johzeln  felt  a  huge  strike  on  his head . .  Then  heard  a  sharp  high  pitched  scream . . one  after  another  and  then another . .  as  it  dreadfully  echoed  throughout  the  grand  room . . "Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . ." voicelessly cried out Johzeln . . as  he  felt  himself   unconsciously  slowly  fall   down  on  the  dance  floor . . He   dejectedly   absentmindedly   tried  to  look   toward   Ayhilina . . yet  out  of  sight . . Johzeln  slowly  passed  out  . .

How many minutes passed . . “Johzeln are you alright . .” Johzeln slowly felt himself regain consciousness . . then felt a bright flashlight fixated on him . . Johzeln astonished abruptly tried to stand . . yet Johzeln instantly felt huge pain on his head . . Johzeln nearly collapsed again . . then he felt several students help him stand . . take him to nearby empty low table where he dejectedly sat himself . . “are you alright pal . .” heard Johzeln very faintly . . Johzeln in a dizzy foggy state . . looked toward students with his eyes a bit closed and said . . “Yes . . Yes  . . Thanks guys . . Appreciate it . .” repeatedly . . “Are you alright for sure Johzeln . .” “Want us call 911 . .” “How are you gonna drive home like that  . .” “I can drop you off at your place . .” Johzeln . . though felt deeply thankful for the warm expressions . . because his mind was in a foggy state and with the sudden abrupt unexpected attention he started to feel a little uncomfortable . . “I am alright guys again Thanks . . Appreciate It . . ” “I am gonna walk home thank you . . yet can you guys get me a glass of water please . .” said Johzeln as he tried to pull himself together . . and then . . suddenly . . Johzlen remembered . . Ayhilina . . “Guys . . Ayhilina . .” instantly shouted as he straightly looked at one of his classmates right in front of him . . “Filiahn . .” said another classmate as he brought Johzeln water . . Ayhilina . . Johzeln dejected . . absentmindedly . . looked at his classmate . . then helplessly thanked his classmate for the water . . drank a little sip . . put the glass of water on the table . . and slowly stood up . . slowly began to walk toward the grand room door . . walked . . walked . . until he reached outside the school yard . . It was filled with full laughter and joyful shoutout here and there . . Johzeln suddenly felt forsaken . . totally lost . . Johzeln wanted to feel his laughter his joy . . yet . . no . . emptiness . . felt empty as it can be . . "Ayhilina" . .

12/8/2022

Johzeln slowly began to walk toward home . . Johzeln walked . . and walked . . Johzeln felt the fresh clear breeze pass by him with a little nudge on his shoulder . . Johzeln felt . . Restful . . no one was on the street on the sidewalk . . Johzeln felt . . Peaceful . . Johzeln walked . . and walked . .  as he tried to forget about the incident . . as he tried to forget about . . Ayhilina . . yet Johzeln  . . could not . . Johzeln . . could still feel her . . face . . body . . scent . . smile . . near him . . Johzeln . . abruptly shook his head . . tried to take his mind off . . Ayhilina . . however as Johzeln walked . . he suddenly . . realized . . he was in front of her place . . right in front of her place . . Johzeln . . then . . all of a sudden . . saw an unusual extravagant car parked in front of her home . . Johzeln . . felt uncomfortable . . Johzeln stood still for a while . . and then . . hesitantly . . slowly walked . . toward the parked car . . “Filiahn . .” said Johzeln . . to himself . . Johzeln . . suddenly felt . . disappointed . . felt dejected . . to the point that . . it was too painful . .  Johzeln frustratedly looked at the car and then kicked the sidewalk near the car as though he wanted to break it into pieces . . like his lost heart right now . . that has instantly broken into pieces . . Johzeln . . downhearted . . crestfallen deeply . . dashed toward the other side of the street . . yet then . . all of a sudden . . Johzeln heard a cry . . “stop it . .” Johzeln . . instantly stopped . . “Ayhilina . .” it was her voice . . faintly . . yet . . it was her voice . . Johzeln . . astonished . . immediately dashed back toward her home . . stopped right in front of her door . . “Filiahn . . stop it . .” again . . did Johzeln hear Ayhilina cry out . . With that . . Johzeln began to press the doorbell . . shouted out . . “Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . .” however . . no response . . Johzeln stood still . . and then did Johzeln hear a struggle . . “Ayhilina are you Alright . . Are you alright Ayhilina . .” shouted Johzeln as he instantly dashed toward the side of the house where he heard the struggle . . and as he arrived at the back yard . . Johzeln saw a white-wooden fence nearly his height . . Johzeln urgently stood on his tiptoe . . and there . . Johzeln saw Filiahn nearly on top of Ayhilina . . Johzeln  astonished furiously yelled . . “Filiahn you drunk stop it Right Now . .” with that . . Johzeln dashed back to jump over the fence  . . then suddenly . . Luckily . . Johzeln saw the back door on his right unlocked . . Johzeln instantly dashed toward the back door and then charged right toward Filiahn as he shouted . . “Filiahn you drunk stop it Right Now . .” and then threw himself at Filiahn . . Filiahn got knocked down . . “Ayhilina head inside now and call the cops immediately . . stay inside  . .” shouted Johzeln to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . as she got up nodded her head yet worriedly looked at Johzeln . . “I will be Fine . . Hurry Ayhilina head in . .” Ayhilina nodded and hesitantly walked toward home . . Johzeln then looked toward Filiahn where he was lying down on his stomache . . Filiahn was one of the best fighters at school . . Johzeln all of a sudden felt sick a little . . “how am I gonna fight him . . I am a dead man now . .” thought Johzeln as he walked closer and further back and forth from where Filiahn was . . however . . all of a sudden . . Johzeln heard Filiahn shout as he tried to stand up . .  “Johzeln . . not the cops . . I will get busted by my parents . . not the cops . .”  Johzeln . . a little surprised at the sudden situation . . at the same time relieved encouraged by his words . . shouted back . . “then get out of here right now . . Now . . ” with that . . Filiahn . . in a drunk state unsteadily hurriedly stood up walked toward the back door and then . . suddenly stopped . . turned and . . looked back at Ayhilina . . “I said get out of here Now . .” shouted Johzeln furiously . . Filiahn who nearly tripped hurriedly went out . . Johzeln carefully followed Filiahn at a distance to make sure he was totally out of sight . . and as Johzeln saw from afar a guy drive away with Filiahn . . Johzeln dashed to Ayhilina . .

Ayhilina . . was outside . . “Ayhilina . . “ “are you . . Alright . .” said Johzeln . . “Yes . .” said Ayhilina as she thankfully looked at Johzeln . . “Thank you . . Johzeln . . Appreciate It . . Cannot thank you enough . . " “No worries . .” said Johzeln as he smiled with a relief for he did feel a little proud of himself . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhilina suddenly called out . . “Your sleeves  . . ripped . .” Johzeln bewildered hastily looked at his suit . . It was indeed ripped . . yet it was alright . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . “No worries Ayhilina . .” “I have another suit . .” said Johzeln as he cheerfully smiled . . then . . Johzeln  looked at Ayhilina . . and unconsciously abruptly said . . “You Look Beautiful Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina looked at Johzeln and gave a little smile and said . . “You Too . . ” Johzeln looked toward Ayhilina as he blushed . . his cheeks turned pink and red . . and then . . abruptly . . Johzeln shouted out . . “Ayhilina would . .” “would you walk with me a little uh visit my hideout  . .” “yet we can could . .” “could walk next time . .” stuttered Johzeln . .  “I like that Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina as she gave Johzeln a warmhearted smile . . then walked a little closer to Johzeln . .  Johzeln . . as he slowly felt his heartbeat flutter . .  carefully held her waist . . and with . . his revived heartbeat quietly suddenly felt . . his body reawakened by her scent . . his mind filled with blessed gratitude . . his heart filled with sunset kiss . . did they begin to walk together . . side by side . . toward the quiet streetlight . . toward the peaceful nature . .

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12/17/2022

Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . walked and walked  together . .  peacefully quietly as they felt little rays of light spreaded  between  the pleasant warm  night  wind as  they  looked  at each other with a restful smile time to time . . till . .  they reached . . a hidden narrow path . . that  led toward  the  mountain a little far away from their  neighborhood . . “There Is a path . .” “I had no idea . . ” said Ayhilina with amaze . . “Yes my favorite place . .” said  Johzeln  with  an awkward smile . . and then . . said . . “Would . . would  it  be  alright  for  you  Ayhilina  to walk  a little . .” “No . .  nobody has ever been to my favorite place and I wanna . .” said  Johzeln  as  he again  begin  to stutter . . “That Would  Be  Nice . .” said  Ayhilina  right  away  to  Johzeln  with  a  pleasantly  felt  smile . . and  slowly began to walk toward the lone path . . and did they together . . dived into the path . . path that gradually led to a forest filled with intertwined  fairytalelike  forest  trees . . “Beautiful . .” quietly  shouted  out  Ayhilina . . as  they  slowly  walked  into  the  night  forest . . the forest . . filled  in  with  cleansed reinvigorated air filled in with enliven lively aura . . yet as they began to walk deep deep into the forest  high  and  high toward the mountain path . . Ayhilina suddenly  felt  mist  permeate  from  the  distance . . “Johzeln  I  cannot see . .” with that . . Johzeln . . hurriedly  went  closer  and  gently held Ayhilina by her waist and said . . “There is nature light a few feet away . .” Ayhilina a little  surprised  by  his  words  looked  at  Johzeln and  said . . “Nature Light . .”  Johzeln . . quietly  looked  at  Ayhilina . . nodded  with  a smile . . Ayhilina . . Johzeln . . then leaned on to each other walked and walked . . and did they soon arrive in front of a beautiful heavenlike waterfall  in  the  middle  of  a  deep  deep  quiet forest . . filled  with  pastel  lights  in  full glow . . “Johzeln . .” called out Ayhilina . . “It feels like right now I am in space . . Too Beautiful . .” Yes . . It was truly beautiful . . waterfall melody . . nature light . . purefelt mist . . angelic silence . . with the pastel colorful waterfall lights spread across on the reflected lunar lights . . and a mystic pastel blue gold light spread across above the limestone of the waterfall . . It was Beautiful . .  “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina in amaze looked toward Johzeln . . there Johzeln held a little glass lantern . . filled with pastel blue gold glow light . . “Johzeln . . ” “Yes . . Nature Light . . glow worms . . no harm to humans . . ” “Hidden . . yet one beauty God . . has ever created . . Led Guided my Way whenever I got lost . .” Ayhilina . . looked at . . Johzeln . . Johzeln quietly . . smiled . . and then . . said . . “Let’s . .” and with his nature light by their side . . beautiful heavenlike waterfall behind . . did they walk walk . . toward the path higher . . and higher . . “Ayhilina . .” suddenly called out Johzeln as he breathed deep from their walk on the mountain . . “Yes . . Johzeln . .” “why you learn how to fly a plane . .” Ayhilina . . with a smile and after a little breathe for breath herself said . . “I wanna be austronaut like your aunt . .” then looked at Johzeln . . “How about you Johzeln . . You said you will join my pilot lesson . .” with that . . Johzeln replied . . “Yes I am gonna . .” without hesitation without uncertainty . . because Johzeln wanted to . . because Johzeln wanted to be a real man . . without fear . . Johzeln then slowly glanced at Ayhilina . . then looked back toward the mountain path . . and then did Johzeln look at Ayhilina . . and called out again . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina as she took a deep breath  to  feel  the  scent  of  nature looked  at  Johzeln . . “Yes . . Johzeln . .” “Are  you alright to live alone by yourself . .” Ayhilina a little astounded by his words looked at Johzeln . . “I am very worried because of . .  Filiahn . .” said Johzeln as he meant it . . Ayhilina . . with a warm smile took another deep breath . . and then looked at Johzeln and said . . “I am alright Johzeln . . Thank You . . I lived alone by myself for quite a while I am very much used to it now . . Thank You again . . ” Johzeln . . then . . abruptly said . . “Would you mind I visit time to time at your home . .” Ayhilina . . with a little astonishment and a little smile . . looked at Johzeln . .  “I . . I mean to make sure you are alright . .” stuttered Johzeln again . . as he meant it . . “Johzeln I like that . .” said Ayhilina as she gave Johzeln a little nudge on his shoulder with a warm smile . . and then all of a sudden . . did they feel a chilly yet refreshed wind pass by right through them . . “Ayhilina We Are Here . .” with that . . Ayhilina found herself right at the very top of the mountain . . Ayhilina as she gradually caught her breath . . slowly walked toward the cliff filled with tall nice palm trees . . and as she reached the cliff . . Ayhilina carefully peeked between the tall palm trees . . “Johzeln . . Peallahn Beach . . how did we ever . . reach here . .” Ayhilina shouted with amaze . . Ayhilina then heard Johzeln shout out from across . .  “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina slowly turned and looked toward Johzeln . . there  Ayhilina  saw  Johzeln  right  in  front  of a huge outworn van that was written “In 1977” . . Ayhilina . . amazed by the sudden sight of a van at the very top of the mountain . . gave a shout out . . “Goodness . . Johzeln how in the world did you . .” Johzeln with a little smile said . . “It was not me . . It is my aunt . .” “My aunt was born in 1977 . . as soon as my aunt saw the van with her born year written on it at an auction while she was at school . . she bought it . . with cash . .” “In an auction . .” said Ayhilina with amaze . . “For how much . .”  Johzeln . . with a litter laugh . .  said . . “48 dollars . .” “Excuse . . Me . .” said  Ayhilina  with  a  little  laugh  herself . .  and then said  as  she walked closer to the van . . “Good deal . .” Johzeln . . as he put his nature lantern on top of the van said . . “Yes and No there was a well-founded logic of why the van was cheap . . My aunt used it for a year and . .  ever since . . it has been here with me help me live on breathe on . .” said Johzeln with a heartfelt smile . . “Are you serious . . ” said Ayhilina as she gave a little smile too . .  “However . . Johzeln . .”  “you  cannot  drive  it . . how  in  the  world  could  it  help  you  live  on breath on . . ” with that . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina and beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina  looked  at  Johzeln  and  slowly  walked  near . . Johzeln . . as  he  saw  Ayhilina  walk  toward him . . hurriedly climbed his van reached on top of it . . “Johzeln . .” shouted  Ayhilina  astounded  by  his  sudden  quick  act  as  she  reached  in front  of  his van . . “Here . . Ayhilina . . ” “I will help you . .” Ayhilina as she looked at Johzeln said . . “Are you serious . .” “I am dead serious . . Ayhilina Believe me you will like it  . . ” with that . . Johzeln  beckoned  to  Ayhilina  again  to  walk  closer  and . . as Ayhilina got closer within his reach . . carefully  helped  her  climb on  top  of  it . . and . . as  soon  as  Ayhilina . . got on top of his van . . there Ayhilina saw a beautiful picturesque night beach . . unfolded right  in  front  of  her  eyes . . “Johzeln . . it is Beautiful . ." "I feel like I am above the sky and beyond with wings . .” wholeheartedly shouted out  Ayhilina  deeply  amazed . . “Glad  you  like it . .” said Johzeln with a fully relieved smile . . Ayhilina  then  looked  at  Johzeln  with gratitude . . and nodded . . “Now I understand . .” said Ayhilina . . “You  hike  to  be right  here  whenever  you  wanna  be with  nature . . whenever  you wanna be left  alone . .” “Yes  you  are  right . .  yet . . there  is . . another  purpose . .” said  Johzeln . . Ayhilina  looked  at   Johzeln with  awe . . Johzlen  however . . instead  of  a  talk . . suddenly  grabbed  a huge  full  wire  fence  shaped  blanket  that  was  on  top of  his  van . . and  spread it . . and   then  sat  on  the  blanket . . dropped  his legs on  the  side  of  the  van . . then  beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . as she gave a little suspicious gaze at Johzeln with a little smile . . slowly  walked  toward  the  full  blanket . . and  then  sat  on the blanket next to Johzeln  as  she  dropped  her  legs  on  the  side  of  the van too . . then  Johzeln suddenly lied down straight . . and beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina  as  she  gave  a  one  last  suspicious  look  at Johzeln  with  a  little  smile . . lied  down right next to Johzeln . . then . . did Johzeln call out . . “Ayhilina . .” as he gazed at the night sky  . . “I  hike  time  to  time  whenever  my  aunt  is  in  space . . I  would  look through beyond night sky pray for my aunt to be alright be in peace . .” Ayhilina . . with his unexpected words . . suddenly felt . . her heart her eyes filled with warm heartfelt tears . .

 

Ayhilina dreamed looked at the night sky beyond for a while quietly . . then  slowly  sat  herself  looked  at   Johzeln and  said  “Johzeln . ." "Would you mind you visit time to time at my home . .” Johzeln then with a little astonishment slowly sat . .  “I mean to make sure you are alright . .” said  Ayhilina  with  a  little  smile . . with  that  Johzeln Ayhilina  joyfully  quietly looked at each other closer closer . . kissed right above the lighted nature lantern right below the night light as melody of sea wave went on and on . . 

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 몇일 동안 선한 믿음내 행복하고 편안히 잘 지냈길 바라며 마음내 축복가득 전하며 인사해요 ^-^

네 조금 바빴지만 저도 덕분에 행복하고 편안한 마음내 잘 지냈어요 언제나 감사해요

내년부터 이어질 저의 픽션들은 이제부터 본론으로 들어갈거예요 나름대로 정성들여 혼자 만들어 가고 있기에 시간이 걸리는 거 이해해줘 감사해요 ^-^

언제나 한 해가 그랬듯 이번 해도 은혜롭고 평화로운 날들로 감사히 기억에 남을 것 같아요  기억에 남아있는 한분 한분 축복 가득하길 기도해요 ♡

안전히 잘 지내시고 있있길 보고싶어 저도 저를 한 번도 실제로 보지 않은 분들도 있을 거예요 조금은 궁금하실 것 같아요 직접 본다는거 좋아하는 마음 확신의 길 네 ^-^

한국과 미국내 이어가는 저의 평범한 삶 언제나 선한 믿음내 최선내 늘 낮은 자세로 저의 곁에 있어줄 그대가 있을거라 믿기에 흥분가득 행복가득 

욕심이 많은 보여주기 급급한 권력이 아닌 권력을 악용하여 정직하지 않은 하는 척 하는 분들 보여요 걱정되요 부디 조심하시기를  분들 위하여 우리 같이 기도해요 ^-^  

그대 언제나 그랬듯 우리 밝은 미래의 길 세상에 알려져도 조용히 밝은 그림자와 같은 존재로 도움 필요하신 분들 돌아보며 살아가길 바래요 감사해요 

Hello I Believe and I Deeply Hope You are very Well & Good for the past few days  ^-^

As always Thanks to you I am very Well & Good too again I deeply Thank You 

Yes time did fly again however gotta say I am within Gratitude again Thanks for my humble art work to be partly Guided by you your people in time Appreciate you  ^-^

Thank You as We said I will further Endeavor to fulfill My legal work and art alone in lighted shadow out of the public eye till time for hidden People in struggle Be Heard ♡

Next fictions which will begin next year will both gradually begin its main plot because until now it was a prologue ^-^

Thank You to those who visit my websites which I know it is a few yet Again number is not important & as I previously left before Let’s always remember History please be Humble 

I Wanna Thank You again For Your Honest Wait though I am slow Hey You I know That is Why I too know We are meant to be Feel each other even From Afar in Real Life ^-^

Hey You Let’s Remember pray for Hidden People & See You Again Soon In Peace Yes I Agree For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers To You 

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1/21/2023

Johzeln . . looked at the time hung on the wall . . then he stood in front of the door looked out the window . . then looked at the time again . .  then . . abruptly . . did Johzeln give a heavy sigh . . another one . . and another . . as he walked back and forth in the same place . . “Johzeln can you help me with the luggages . .” called out Aunt Yilainah  . . with that . . Johzeln quickly walked toward where Aunt Yilainah  was . . then carefully grabbed her luggages and brought them in front of the door . . “They are heavy right . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she dragged the rest of the luggages  to the door . . “Nope . .” said Johzeln quietly . . as he carefully dropped the luggages on the floor . . Aunt Yilainah . . consciously  looked  at  Johzeln as she dropped her luggages next to other luggages . . then called out . . “Johzeln . .” “How is your plane practice nowadays . .” Johzeln . . as he pulled the luggages nearer to the door . . reluctantly said . . “Good . .” then slowly . . looked out the window . . Aunt Yilainah after a concerned look at Johzeln . . purposely shouted out with an unusually excited tone in her voice . .“When are you gonna earn your Private Pilot License . .” Johzeln . . however with little enthusiasm . . looked at Aunt Yilainah and said . . “about in several weeks . .” “Good . .” joyfully said Aunt Yilainah . . “Heard Ayhilina finally earned her Commercial Pilot Certificate . .” with that . . Johzeln . . with a little smile on his face said . . “Yes . .” “Are you gonna earn your Certificate after you earn your License . .” asked Aunt Yilainah  . . Johzeln . . then . . with another little smile on his face said . . “I Wanna yes . .” “Fantastic Johzeln . . Time I am back to Planet Earth within about 211 days . .” “My favorite boy will be a pilot . . YaY . .” shouted  out  Aunt  Yilainah  with  a  full  smile . . Johzeln . . with an awkward look . . reluctantly . . gave a smile too . .   for he himself was excited to fly a plane with a real certificate . . “Now that looks nice . .” said Aunt Yilainah relieved to see Johzeln smile . . “Johzeln . .” then called Aunt Yilainah . . as she walked  closer  to  Johzeln  tightly  held  on  to  his  shoulder . . “I  will  be  back  in  about 211 days . .” “Time flies . . I will be back before you even know it . .” then lightly patted him . . Johzeln  quietly  nodded  his  head  as  he  slowly  looked  down  and  then  looked  at Aunt Yilainah with another yet awkward smile . . “Yet you behave well when in your practice always remember to strictly abide by the instructions . .” said Aunt Yilainah with a little strict tone of voice . . “in case your plane get sucked into space . .” added Aunt Yilainah with a little laugh as she gave Johzeln another delightful pat on the shoulder . . “For sure . .” said Johzeln with a little laugh too . . then . . Aunt Yilainah . . with a heartfelt smile . . looked at Johzeln . . “Who knows . . Probably later Ayhilina You both as astronauts we could altogether travel into the wild wild space . .” “Nobody knows . .” said  Aunt  Yilainah  with  another  heartfelt  smile . . “True true . . nobody knows . .” agreed Johzeln as he quietly nodded and nodded . . Aunt Yilainah . . then again for a little while looked and looked at  Johzeln . . and then said . . “I am gonna miss you lots boy . . Feel  sad  that  I  cannot  be  with  you  on  your Birthday . . ” Johzeln then looked at his Aunt Yilainah with a little awkward smile . . then  looked  down  with  a  little  sad  face . . then  again . . looked out the window . . “Johzeln . . “ called out Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln . . however . . his  head  still  faced  to  the window his eyes welled in tears . . could not look . . “Johzeln . .” again called Aunt Yilainah as  she  walked  in  front  of  Johzeln  held  his  both shoulders tightly straightly  as  she  wanted  Johzeln  to  look  at  her  . . “Johzeln . .” “Whenever you feel lonely . . look toward the sky and its far beyond . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . as  Johzeln  now  looked  at  Aunt Yilainah  his  eyes  filled  with  tears . . “Because I am gonna be right by your side your heart Johzeln no matter where I am above . .” then . . Aunt Yilainah quietly gave a little heartfelt kiss on his forehead  . . and  then  gave  a  little  ticklish  light  nudge  on  his  shoulders . . Johzeln  who  was  unusually  quite  a  bit  ticklish . . reluctantly smiled as his welled tears flew down down his cheeks . . Then . . all of a sudden . . they heard a knock on the door . . Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . . you  are  early . . ” quietly  shouted  out  Johzeln  astonished  as  he dashed to his room . . “Hello Ms. Leah . . Is he alright there . .” said  Ayhilina  as  she  looked  at  Johzeln  dash  to  his  room . . “He is he is . .” said  Aunt  Yilainah  as she joyfully greeted Ayhilina . . Ayhilina quietly nodded  as she understood . . “Ms. Leah . . ” called Ayhilina as she looked at Aunt Yilainah with a little sudden sad look on her face . . “I wanted to stop by to tell you . . I am in prayers for your safe journey  . .” “Why Ayhilina Thank You . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . with a full smile  filled  with  gratitude . . and  then . . quietly  looked  toward  Ayhilina  and said . . “Ayhilina . . I  always  wanted  to  tell  you  too . .” “Thank  you  for  your  generous  heart  your  heartfelt  help  aid  you truly deeply gave  to  Johzeln . .” “After Johzeln met you . . Johzeln changed . .” “Johzeln  grew  a  lot  for the past few weeks because of you . . Now I can fly out above in Peace Ayhilina Thank you . .” said Aunt Yilainah filled with gratitude . . “That is too good to hear Ms. Leah . . I cannot be happier . .” said Ayhilina with a full smile as tears welled in her eyes . . Johzeln . . then appeared . . “Johzlen . .” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina a little astonished as Ayhilina cleared her voice to hide her tears . . Johzlen quietly smiled  . . then looked at Ayhilina gave a little nod . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln then gave a little nod as well . . then they both looked at Aunt Yilainah . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” with that . . Johzeln took out a gold-burgundy heart necklace and two bracelets one with gold half heart the other burgundy half heart . . Ayhilina . . then gave the necklace to Aunt Yilainah as Johzeln gave the burgundy half heart to Ayhilina gold half heart to himself . . “We made these together . . Aunt Yilainah . .” “Want you to always have it on . . " "That way we believe that your heart above is gonna be within our hearts bridged together no matter where you are . .” said Johzeln as he looked at Aunt Yilainah then toward Ayhilina . . “You Guys . .” cried out Aunt Yilainah with her blissful tears welled deep in her eyes as she walked close kissed Johzeln and Ayhilina on their foreheads . .

 

 

“Yes  you  guys  No  matter  Where  I  am . . Your  Heart  Within  Me . . Thank  You . . Thank  You . .”

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1/29/2023

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“Johzlen . .” Ayhilina called as she closely saw Johzeln in front of his locker . . walked toward Johzeln who looked at Ayhilina . . then kissed a while leaned to her locker . . until another fellow pilot student of theirs budged in and said . . with a little laugh with a little joke . . “guys . . you guys are at the air-port . . air kiss . .  no deep kiss allowed . . ” Johzeln Ayhilina astonished and a bit embarrassed by the sudden entrance . . with an awkward laugh . . said . . “duly noted Jedrahn . .” as Johzlen hurriedly walked toward his locker . . “by the way . . belated Congrats on your  Commercial Pilot Certificate Johzeln . . your aunt must be very proud of you . . again Congrats . . ” said Jedrahn after he gathered a few of his pilot stuffs passed by Johzeln with a joyful pat on his shoulder  . . “Thanks . . Jedrahn . . Good Luck with yours . . next week . .” said Johzeln with a shout out . . then smiled at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . after she saw Jedrahn exit the room . . smiled at Johzeln as well and as she took out her G-suit said . . “Johzeln it was nice yesterday to see Ms. Leah again briefly . . I was very relieved that Ms. Leah was in Good shape as usual . .” “True . . yet I am always worried whenever the call gets disconnected suddenly . .” said Johzeln with a worried look on his face as he took out his G-suit and harness . . “I guess . . antenna was out of its range of the satellite . . it happens . . once in a while . . ” said Ayhilina then added . . “Johzeln . . who was the man that briefly appeared . .” Johzeln as he slowly closed his locker . . curiously looked at Ayhilina as though he could not remember who . .  “you know . . nearly before the call got disconnected . . ” said Ayhilina as she put on her harness and survival vest . . Johzeln . . as he put on his survival vest too . . abruptly said . . as he now rememebered . . “you mean the man who flew passed by . . Mr Farluene . . He is mission specialist . . I remember he used to take my aunt out for several dates before in the past . .”  “Is he . . boyfriend . .” Ayhilina said as she sat to put on her pilot flight boots . . Johzeln . . as he sat to put on his pilot flight boots too said . . “not that I know of no . . I did mention it a few times . . yet . . Aunt Yilainah said he is a colleague . .” “Is he nice . .” Ayhilina said as she carefully tied a knot of her  boots . . “He is decent . . I have not talked to him a lot . . yet . . seemed to be decent . .” said Johzeln as he carefully tied a knot of his boots too . . “Good . .” said Ayhilina as she put on her helmet and her gloves . . “Good to hear he is decent . .” Johzeln who finally finished his prep as well as he put on his helmet and his gloves too . . walked toward Ayhilina . . gave her a kiss then said . . “Let’s . .” “Yes . . Let’s . .” said Ayhilina . . as they walked passed the hangar door . . toward . . the beautiful grey fighter jet of Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln and Ayhilina walked toward the center of the door to unbolt . . then . . went from the left corner to the right to release the bolt arm from each hangar door . . then as Ayhilina walked toward the grey fighter jet . . did Johzeln press the button near the right door to draw each  hangar  to  head  upward . . and there Johzeln Ayhilina saw the beautiful sunlight brightly lit in the midst of the bright daylight . . Ayhilina smiled at Johzeln as she cautiously climbed up the  pilot ladder that was  hung on the  side of the jet . . and carefully went into the back seat of the jet and sat . . buckled her seat belt . . connected  the wire of the mask  and headset  to  the connector and cord of her seat . . Johzeln . . as he walked toward the jet smiled at Ayhilina  . . attentively  climbed up the pilot ladder into the front seat and got in . . then . . as soon as he buckled his seat belt connected his mask and headset . . began to activate a number of lighted switches in the cockpit that was prepared to lit . . and after every switch has been activated . . finally . . Johzeln switched on the last button . . where the canopy begin to direct low and low . . until it shut totally . . “Good job Johzeln . .” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina . . “Thanks Ayhilina . . Aunt Yilainah did teach me well  . .” said Johzeln filled with deep gratitude . . “Ms. Leah sure did . .” shouted out Ayhilina . . with that . . Johzlen carefully checked the switches one last time . . “Alright  Ayhlina . .  can you hear me . .” “Yes . .” shouted out loud Ayhlina immediately with  full excitement as soon as  she clearly heard  Johzeln through her headset . . “Good . .” said Johzlen . . and there the jet began to slowly head straight and straight out of its hangar home . . toward  the  endless airstrip . .

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Johzeln as he controlled the fighter jet . . slowly entered the airstrip . . stopped . . and another minute of wait time . . then . . with the radar signal from Air traffic controller . . “Whoosh” . . the fighter jet began to accelerate its speed . . through the runway did it glide and glide . . faster . . and faster . . and  in  no  time . . up up it went . . “YaY . .” shouted Ayhilina . . as the jet continued to fly higher toward the beautiful clear sky . . away and away from the coast . . “Johzeln . . How are you . .” said Ayhilina . . as the jet head toward the beautiful sea of endless clouds . . “Fantastic . . How are you . .” “Good Johzeln . . It is too good to be true . . yet . . a little bored . . ” said Ayhilina with a little laugh . . “Alright . . Hold on  . .” shouted out Johzeln . . then did the jet dive down and down toward the land . . “YaY . .” shouted Ayhilina as the jet turned upside down and upright  and  away . . again and again . . “Johzeln . . Ms. Leah is gonna be proud of you . . I cannot wait her to be back soon . . and ride your ride . .” said Ayhilina as  the jet now flew straight ahead through the clouds . . “Me too Ayhilina . .” “soon within a week . .” said Johzeln excitedly . . however . . suddenly . . from afar . . beyond the sky in front of them . . Johzeln saw a dark fog appear . . then they grew darker and darker . . and within seconds covered the entire sky . . then . . disappeared . . Johzeln . . astonished . . appalled . . by the sudden unusual scene that rarely happens . . “Johzeln . . ” anxiously shouted out Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . .”

2/11/2023

Johzeln Ayhilina . . all  of  a  sudden . . received  very  high  frequency radio call  from  the  Air  Traffic  Control [ ATC ] . . Johzeln  hurriedly tuned into the frequency as he flew a bit down to avoid the mountains that could disrupt the frequency . .  then from the call . . he heard words . . a bit unclear  “ . . we . . information  from . . Space Center . . Ms.  Yilainah  . .  passed  away due to . . accident . .”

 

Johzeln . . Johzeln doubted . . his ears . . felt his eyes stiff . . his face tilted . . he doubted . . again . . and again . . “JAHL 4PWT standby . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . “JAHL 4PWT . . could . . could . . you . . re . . repeat . . message . ." faltered Johzeln as he hastily flew to a clear sight without structures that could disrupt the frequency . . “JAHL 4PWT I say again we have information from the Space Center that Ms. Yilainah Leah passed away due to accident . .” repeated ATC . . Johzeln . . felt . . his ears turn deaf . . his body turn numb . . sight turn . . dark . . darker darker . . his mind . . blank . . blanker blanker . . Ayhilina . . lost with words . . shocked . . absentmindedly . . stared front . . “JAHL 4PWT . . JAHL 4PWT . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . “Roger . . that . . stand . . standby . .” said Johzeln . . reluctantly . . abstractedly . . “JAHL 4PWT Current time noon for safety we recommend you to land . .” called out ATC . . however . . Johzlen . . felt his mind numb . . could not hear feel . . forgot where he was . . where he was at . . where he was . . “JAHL 4PWT I say again JAHL 4PWT Current time noon for safety we recommend  you  to  land . .” called out ATC . . Johzeln . . wanted to say . . wanted to respond . . yet he could not . . for Johzeln felt . . a huge lump in his throat . . a tight crestfallen lump . . deep in his throat . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhilina . . grief-stricken heart-broken . . feebly called out . . Johzeln . . reluctantly arduously . . deeply shaken . . tried to respond . . “that it . . it not un understandable . . be . . because . . ” Johzeln could not finish his sentence . . Johzeln . . could not . . he could not . . because . . it is not real . . he is in a bad dream . . yes . . that is it . . that . . it . . “Johzeln . . Please . . wake up . . wake up . .” shouted Johzeln to himself . . again . . and again . . yet . . No . . it was not . . No . . “JAHL 4PWT cannot copy cannot copy . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . then . . did Johzeln hear Ayhilina call him . . through his headset . . "Johzeln . . " as Ayhilina now grievously . . endlessly . . wept and wept  . .  Johzlen . . with that . . heart . . stopped . . No . . it cannot be . . No . . it . . cannot . . be . . "Aunt Yilainah . . No . ." “No . . No . .” Johzeln . . frantically begin to yell . . “No . . No . . No . . No . . ” Then . . did Johzlen suddenly blast his jet . . in an outrageous speed . . upward . . toward the sky . . higher . . higher . . toward beyond . . “Johzeln . . No . . ” terrifiedly screamed Ayhilina . . “JAHL 4PWT ask you to descend Immediately . . before your radar service gets terminated . . Immediately . .” urgently called out ATC . . yet . . Johzlen . . did not . . could not . . he could . . not . . and as his jet continued to head outrageously toward the sky . . did Johzeln feel . . his body gradually . . tensed . . unnerved . . weakened . . shaken . . as his tears . . poured . . poured . . down down . . “Johzlen . . Please No . .” terrifiedly cried Ayhilina as she helplessly broke down . . “JAHL 4PWT . . " abruptly called out ATC . . "additional  . . information . . about . . Ms.  Yilainah  Leah  . . now  arr . . ived  how . . ever . . your . . land is necess . . ary . . because . .” then abruptly . . radar service got . . terminated . . Johzeln . . dreadfully appalled by the sudden notice termination of the radar service . . desperately cried out . . as he instantly swerved the jet at breakneck speed down down . . down and down . . “Johzeln . .”  

Deeply Pray For People In Türkiye Syria & Every Rescuer  

 

2/24/2023

Hello  Before  I  begin . .  Would  Like  to  tell  briefly  that  the  space phenomenon below  is  a  plot   that  I  myself  have  created  with  a  little knowledge I  have  in  the  very  field  of  space  science and astronomy . .  My  Fiction  is  merely   a   fiction   which   dealt  with  My  Deep   Interest  in  Space  and  Its  Further  Beyond . . Please  Enjoy  them  whenever  your  time  permits   Within   Peace   of  Mind  I  deeply  again  Thank  You . .

Johzeln Ayhilina . . currently at the AIHE Space Center . . four weeks after the unprecedented tragic incident . . a week after arrival by four survived crew . . A Space Expert and . . Mr. Farluene survived mission specialist and commander of the space crew . . gave a brief . .

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Space Expert = Hello  Good  Afternoon  my name is Cyberzn . .  I  am  currently  a  senior  level  executive  of  the  Space  Force  Research  Academy . .  Unfortunately  the  day  of  the  tragic  incident . . a unique space object called  “2023 AP”  roughly  12 km  across  was  detected  less than  1,800  kilometers  from  the  surface  of  Earth  which  headed  toward  us  in  an  unusually  fast  speed  of  38 kilometers  per  second  which we presume is due  to  a sudden  gigantic  gravitational  force  which  is  assumed to be created by an  unidentified  collision between  several  massive  objects  in  a  very  far  away  galaxy . .  the  collision  assumed  to  have  created . .  a  split  second  yet  large-enough  amplitude  gravitational  wave  as  well . . Further “2023 AP”  happen  to  be  in  front  of  the  Sun  for  not  even  a  second  which entirely  eclipsed  the  Sun  in  a  short  period  of  time . .  A  very  unusual  incident . . which  was  why  the  sky  of  half  the  Earth suddenly  grew  dark  in  the  middle  of  the  day  within  seconds  on  the  day  of  the  tragic  incident . . In  addition . . due to the unusually  fast  speed  of “ 2023 AP” . . though  it  itself  did  not  pose  a  direct  risk  to  Earth  at  the  time . . because it  was  an unusual  incident  which  did  not  happen  ever  before  in  history  of  space . . and  again . . because  of  the  unprecedented  unusual speed  toward  Earth . . a  number  of  spacecrafts  that  were sent  to  space  in  advance  for  “planetary  defense” purpose  was  controlled to  head  toward  the  direction  of “2023 AP” . . [“planetary defense” purpose  is  to  crash  the  spacecrafts  into  a space object  that  has  a potential  to  collide  with  Earth  to  change  the  direction  of  the space object  and  prevent  it  from  collision] . . however  due  to  the aforementioned  sudden  creation  of  a  split second yet large-enough amplitude gravitational wave . . spacecrafts instantly uncontrollably   began  to  collide  with  other  large  number  of  satellites  and  numerous space  debris near  Earth  which  was  the cause  of  the tragic  incident  that  day . . 

Mr. Farluene = In sadness as to the tragic incident . . yet without any further delay will begin my brief as to the incident . . It was nearly noon at that time . . on the day of the incident . . a number of unidentified gigantic space debris suddenly crashed into our International Spaceship . . and as it did . . broke two major cameras and lenses directly outside our spaceship and indirectly inside of our spaceship . . videos  from  the  spaceship External High Definition Camera has been interrupted as well due to loss of signal between  the  spaceship  and  the  communication  network  caused  by  the  unidentified  number  of  collided  space  debris . . which from then on . . our spaceship lost control and begin to float uncontrollably for about two hours which is presumed that the aforementioned  gravitational  wave  would  be  the  cause . . In addition . . due  to  the  same  clashed  space  debris . . the antenna that was  pointed  at  the  Deep  Space  Network  one  in  California changed  its  direction  which  caused  the  signal  from  our  spaceship to be lost . . and  that  is  why  the  AIHE  Space  Center  lost  contact  with  our  spaceship  despite  a  lot  of  efforts  made  on  its  part  until our  crew  got  rescued  by  the  Space  Police . . However . . after  two  hours  of  uncontrollable  distressful  float  in  space . . our spaceship slowly halted at an unidentified location considerably far way from Earth . . then after . . approximately an hour later . . as we confirmed that the close was clear . . we had four astronauts head outside to fix the broken antenna and  other  problematic  issues  that  had  to  be  fixed  by  the  tools  we  had  at  that  time . . While  the  astronauts  slowly  headed  out one  after  another  with  their  safety  tether  on . . another  gigantic  space debris crashed into our spaceship again . . and unfortunately . . due to the impact . . the  male  astronaut  who  was  last  in  line  and  about  to  head out . . suddenly  got  harshly  thrown outside toward space . . consequently . . the  tether  failed  and  his capsule  depressurized .  .  regretfully . . he . . passed away . . yet fortunately . . the male astronaut did not drift away for his tether was connected to the tether of the other astronaut who was already outside . .  the other nonsurvivor Ms. Yilainah Leah . . who  was  inside at  the  time  of  the  collision . . was  about  to  have  her  space helmet  on to head out . . however unfortunately  got  thrown  on  the  wall due to the space debris crash . . Ms. Leah hit her head on the wall . . severely injured . . regretfully . . regretfully . . passed . . away . . the deceased body of  the  male  astronaut  was  safely brought to our  spaceship  afterwards . . however . . because we did not  know  when  we  could  be  rescued due to the lost signal and contact . . and because the bodies of two astronauts began to give physical  and  psychological  damage  to  the  survivors  inside the spaceship . . a  week  after  the  tragic  incident . . we  made  a decision to use . . Promession system for both of our space crew who  passed away . . [promession  system  is where  a  corpse  that  is  placed  inside  the  airtight casket to be placed  outside  attached  to  the  spaceship . .  then for a period of time the corpse will  freeze due to the cold  temperature  of  space . . afterwards  the  corpse  will  vibrate  into  fine  powder  by  the  robots  attached  to the system . . then the remains will be dehydrated . . the  left  frozen  powder  in  the  airtight will be enclosed in an airtight container . . attached on the outside part of the spaceship  . . until it could be safely returned to Earth] . . Promession  process  as to  the  corpse  of  the  male  astronaut  was  executed in  an  adequate  manner . . yet  . . after  the first execution . . promession system  unfortunately  did  not  function properly . . thus . . though  we  knew  it  was  illegal  to  place  corpse of a human out  in  space . . for  physical  and  psychological  safety  of  our  survivors . . we had no choice . . we cautiously tied Ms. Leah  outside  tightly  with  the  tether  right  beside  the  airtight  container . .  yet . .  unfortunately . .  regretfully . . a few days later . . we found the tether broke loose . . Ms. Leah . . was not in sight . . disappeared . . 

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3/8/2023

A week has passed . .

Johzeln . . at home of Ayhilina in her room . . Together . . in the midst . . of the tragic . . accident . . laid on her bed . . as they breathed in pastelish felt wind pass by through her room window . . Johzeln leaned his head on her shoulder as they quietly laid on her bed waited waited to listen to the radio . . Report of how the country is in process to cope with the tragic incident how the incident could be at least adequately resolved . . as  Ayhlina  laid  further  back  on  her  pillow  right  beside  Johzeln  quietly  kissed  his  forehead  then  put  her  leg on  top  of  his  leg . . Johzeln  then as he leaned on the pillow too looked at her kissed her on her lips quietly grabbed her bracelet . . Ayhilina then sadly quietly grabbed his bracelet then voicelessly said "Necklace In My Heart . ." then several minutes later through the radio . . a reporter who observed the conference . . began his brief  report . .

“I am currently at the city conference hall . . International Community is said to initiate a conference as to discuss [Compensation Claim of Accidents Related to Space Debris] in a few weeks . . the conference is to deal with the situation as to the tragic incident in space that happened several weeks before which is accountable for the death of two astronauts . . Because majority of space debris occurs mainly due to the launch of advanced spacecrafts and satellites from Earth which remains in space until it re-enters the atmosphere . . which is currently said to be automatically in increase though none of these are launched in the future . . it is expected that another tragic incidents due to space debris could happen in the near future . . Therefore . . conference will mainly deal with issues how the victim states could claim compensation against any damage of its spacecrafts satellites and casualties by space objects and space debris . . Yet the international community is concerned as to the legal procedure of the compensation claim for conflict is expected in the process . . For instance in the case of the tragic incident a few weeks before . . provided that the victim state begins a litigation . . generally the victim state will target a designated country who is assumed to be the cause of the space debris that damaged International Spaceship . . because the relevant space debris that crashed into International Spaceship is assumed to be made by the number of spacecrafts for “planetary defense” that are under control of the designated country . . However . . the designated country will refute to participate as a party in the litigation for there is no proof and no mechanical device to hold their spacecrafts are the main cause that damaged the International Spaceship . . further . . without a rightful proof of clear evidence . . the designated country in no way will pay a large amount of compensation for the victims where there is no real proof the country is accountable for the damage . . and further because the current compensation claim is based on space law that lacks effective legal procedures to resolve international disputes within space  [i.e., currently space law is established in a way where a country could be punished and pay restitution even though the states are not at fault without clear evidence which is seriously incompatible with recognized basic principles of both state responsibility and customary international law] . . Therefore certain countries and a number of international lawyers in the field of space law . . to  aid  the  damages  and casualties  caused  by  collisions  with  unidentified  space  debris which  again  as  mentioned  above  is made due to launch of advanced spacecrafts and satellites . . are in consideration  to avail  two  compensation  devices  which  are  Space  Insurance  and  Liability Instrument . .  further . .  under  the  consult  with  certain  relevant  countries  and  corporations . . International Lawyers in the field of space law are in Legal Prep for these compensation devices to be included as one of the provisions within the  International  Space  Law  Convention  to  make the devices practically and universally available . . Legal Prep is based on a Legal Research by one of the victims Yilainah Leah who tried to take real action based on her legal research paper relevant to space debris . . prior to her death . . which is written . . “Inclusion of the space insurance and liability instrument devices as one of the provisions of International Space Law Convention will aid the countries that are not at fault to be compensated as to the incidents  related in the space regime in case of another unfortunate mishap happens in the near future . . No doubt advance in technology is helpful and necessary for mankind  however  consequently there  is  called  an  aftermath  that  follows  nearly  every  advanced technology development  which  could  put our planet into further risk . . risk that no advanced technology could ever fix . . especially toward  those  who  are  hidden  vulnerable  weak  helpless . .” “Prevention  In Advance . . must be looked into before it is too late . . because now . . we already are late . .”

Later on Johzeln received a number of mails from several government attorneys written [Government Compensation Plan For Ms. Yilainah Leah] . . Yet because there was no incident that a body has floated beyond ever before in the history of space currently there exists no law or international convention written as to the type of compensation in the case of Ms. Leah . . However the Space Administration and the Government decided to give Johzeln a decent amount of compensation based on the contribution Ms. Leah has made for the space community . . yet to Johzlen . . no matter how much amount of compensation Johzeln received . . could not amend his heart from deep pain . . pain his memories with his aunt is now in the past . . pain that no future memories with his aunt could ever be built . . insufferable pain his aunt . . is . . in deep space . . now . . far . . away . . lifeless . .  left alone . .

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3/24/2023

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 한 주 좋은 깊은 믿음내 언제나 그러셨듯 선하고 편안한 마음으로 행복하고 안전히 잘 보내셨길 ^-^

저도 덕분에 논문들과 조만간 있을 국제법연구센터 국내회의 관련 강의 준비들과 버클리로스쿨 줌회의 토론자로 참석하며 조금 바쁘긴 했지만요 현실내

편안한 마음으로 감사히 안전히 잘 지냈어요 그대도 그러셨길 ^-^

그대 마음깊이 알고 있어요 다시 한 번 언제나 그림자와 같은 저 그대 기다려줘 표현해줘 감사해요 네 ♡

간절히 전해요 싸이트내 제가 쓰는 숫자 단어 문구들의 의미 배열순 본인의 기준하에 마음대로 판단하지 마시길 부탁하며 바래요 ^-^

저는 저이기에 한 분 한 분 유닉하고 아름답듯 그 누구도 저에대해 단정을 짓거나 정의 내리거나 저를 대신하지 않아요 제 자신도 믿음내 이와같이 한 분 한 분 존중하기 위해 마음깊이 노력하고 있어요 

지금까지 제 싸이트들 글 음악 포토를 본 분들은 제가 좋아하는 것들 알거예요 지금도 저는 그것들을 좋아해요 저는 마음내 조금 일정한 면 있어 잘 변하지 않아요 저를 아시는 분은 알거예요 ^-^  

저도 그렇기에 그대만 좋아해요 다른분들 없어요 그대와 저 같이할 좋은 의미있는 미래 한 곳만 보여요 마음깊이 행복해요 우리 곧 선한 믿음으로 마음껏 즐길 우리만의 현삶 가득 그리며 조만간 곧 봐요 네 

Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope You are very Well & Good within at least a little bit of rest Thanks to You again I am very Well & Good Too I Always Deeply Thank You ^-^

Hey You I Would like to appreciate You again For Your Honest Wait though I am shadowy slow I was a little busy in prep for ILRC National Conference lectures Soon

Thankfully Joined an Intl Discussion Panel at Berkeley Law School via Zoom & got a little stuck with AI Environment Human Rights Paper still in process Gotta say it is Tough as I expected  ^-^

Blessed to Have submitted a project proposal to work with US Embassy to aid our agonized Hidden People in our world which I will tell later soon Deeply Thankful For You For Your Light

I Would like to say again to certain people Please Look into Real contents of my word picture music that I wanna truly share No number counts ponder of my word for it is a waste of time ^-^

Wanna tell that each every word picture music of my websites are about You I Alone nobody else For as many writers I too write from our flow of Past Time Bridged Till Now Yes Unforgettable 

I Believe It is not right for a human to try to define another replace another with oneself in which I believe the act needs to heal please remember like you Every Human is Unique Beautiful ^-^

Yes Hey You I am sure gonna Fly in July Yet Let’s Always Remember Pray For hidden people in pain See You Again Soon I Agree Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers 

Johzeln . . in  his  room  tries  to  live  on . . yet  an  arduous  life . . Johzeln . . after  the  tragic  incident . . neither  contacted  nor communicated  with  any  other  people . . except  Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . however . . gradually . . tried  to  live  on  endeavored  to  make  herself   busy . . began   her  college   life  as  she  majored  in  several  fields . . air  law . . computer  science . . technology  and  mathematics . . worked  as  an  Air  Traffic  Controller  assistant . . additionally  entered  into  a  nationally  well  recognized  test  pilot  school program . . further  proceeded   her   pilot-in-command  time  in  her  jet  aircraft  to  gain  thousand  hours . .  which  is  a  requirement . .  to be an Astronaut . . Ayhilina . . Friday night . . after . . her busy week flew by like a wind like an arrow . . texted Johzeln to join her colleagues for a drink near his home . . yet . . no response . . Ayhilina texted Johzeln again . . yet . . again . . no response which was not like him . . Ayhilina worried . . abruptly excused herself from the group . . dashed outside . . hurriedly began to walk toward his home . . walked and walked . . till Ayhilina arrived . . however to her astonishment . . saw every light of his home turned off . . which was unusual . . Ayhilina . . appalled . . dashed toward the frontdoor . . unlocked it as Ayhilina immediately shouted out . . “Johzeln . .” however . . no answer . . “Johzeln . .” shouted  Ayhilina  again . . as she hastily walked toward his room . . where Ayhilina . . to her astonishment . . found Johzeln laid on the floor . . with alcohol everywhere . . a pack of cigarette with several lighters scattered on the floor . . Johzeln did not smoke . . not once . . Ayhilina . . turned  on  room  light . . Then . . looked at his room . . his windows were closed . . his room was left  uncleaned filled with unwashed clothes everywhere . . his bed untidied . . Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . felt uncomfortable . . then gradually . . got  tensed worried . . then . . then . . got irated . . furious . . enraged . . felt sudden helpless tears burst within her . . Ayhilina . . could not take it . . could . . not . . with that . . Ayhilina . . from the very bottom of her heart . . yelled  “Johzeln . .” with that . . Johzeln . . appalled . . alarmed by a sudden loud intense yell . . frantically woke up . . weakly got himself up . . as he feebly . . unstably . . looked at Ayhilina . . who  was  in  tears . . who was in a  deep state of inexplicable sadness helplessness inquietude disheartenment . . “Ayhilina . . ” called out Johzeln fragilely with a weak smile . .  astonished by the sudden unexpected situation . . Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . looked  at  Johzeln . . looked  at  him . . without a word . . without . . a word . . Wanted to yell . . wanted to cry out . . “How are you gonna live your life Johzeln . . how . . ” “Look at you Johzeln . . look at yourself . .” However . . could not . . yell . . could  . . not . . desperately . . wanted  to . . Yet . . could . . not . . Because . . Because Ayhilina knew . . knew  how  desperately  heartbroken wretched Johzeln was . . how much . . he did not wanna  accept his reality . . his situation . . his existence . . his life . . “Johzeln . .” quietly called out Ayhilina . . as Ayhilina looked and looked at Johzeln whose eyes were swollen because of deep inward sadness . . whose lips were dry as a desert because of his severely depressive state . . whose mind was vulnerable uncontrollable because of a sudden unexpected tragic trauma . . whose heart was broken into pieces to pieces as a shattered land because of a sudden loss of his dear aunt . . Ayhilina heavily felt her regretful  heartened  tears within  her  crestfallen  eyes . . slowly walked toward Johzeln . . held him tightly his weakly dropped shoulder . . held his weak delicate frail vulnerable heart . .  “Johzeln I Believe Ms. Leah Is In Peace . . Let’s Pray Ms. Leah . . Deeply Pray For Her To Be Found Soon . . Lead Her Way Home . . ”  then . . Ayhilina  helped  Johzeln  stand . . helped  him  slowly  lie  on  his bed . . laid  his  head  carefully on his pillow . . then  Ayhilina  walked  out  of  his  room . . then . .  brought a full glass of clear water . . “Johzeln . .” Johzeln weakly turned  . . then  looked  toward  her . . then with a smile . . slowly got himself up . . carefully took the glass  . . sipped . . then . . slowly slowly drank the glass of water . .   “Ayhilina . .” called out Johzeln . . soon after he slowly finished his water . . “Yes . .” said Ayhilina . .  “Remember You brought Me a glass of  Water at the grand room . . When I was alone in the corner . . Before our Unforgettable Dance . . Before we had each other our Dreamlike Kiss . . ” Ayhilina . . suddenly . . bursted into tears . . tears of heartfelt unforgettable endless blissful memory . . memory which now . . seemed too far away . . “Yes Johzeln I remember . . I remember it well . .” Ayhilina said . . with that . . Ayhilina kissed his forehead . . kissed his lips . . as her heart grieved . . with tears of . . beautiful reminiscence beautiful fate . . that Ayhilina wanna deeply hold on to . . that Ayhilina wanna look forward to endlessly . . Ayhilina . . as she tried to hide her tears . . said . . “Now Johzeln . . have a good rest . . ” with that . . Ayhilina heartily covered Johzeln with his blanket . . quietly walked out . . looked at Johzeln for a little while then closed the door . .

Johzeln . . then . . after  a  little  while  of  toss  and  turn . . slowly  began  to  drowse . . then . . slowly . . fell asleep . . However . .  suddenly did he feel . . instantly feel . . chilly  radiance  near  him . . Johzeln . . abruptly  astonished . . turned  toward  where  he  felt  the  unsual . . Then . . to  his  horror . . Johzeln . . from  afar . . in the darkness . . beyond . . saw his aunt float . . in a lifeless state . . however . . roughly panted for breath . . then . . ghastly shouted out . . “Johzeln . .”

4/11/2023

Johzeln . . appalled . . full of agonized sweat . . awaken . . screamed . . screamed out loud . . Ayhilina who was next to his room . . room of Ms. Leah . . alarmed by his scream . . dashed toward his room . . saw him gasp pant on his bed full of troubled sweat . . Ayhilina cried . . “Johzeln are you alright . .” yet . . no . . Johzeln was not alright . . Ayhilina . . worried . . of his vulnerable state his uncontrollably helpless state . . slowly walked . . toward Johzeln  sat beside then put her head slowly on his shoulder then tightly held on to his other weak shoulder . . then for  a  while . . silence . . filled  his  room . . without  a  noise . . Johzeln   gradually  felt  himself  in tranquility  in  peace . . then . . Ayhilina . . abruptly   walked   out . . then   within  a  minute  brought  a  glass  of  water  again  walked  toward  him . .  he . . feebly   looked at Ayhilina . . carefully took her glass . . then Johzeln slowly drank . . “Are you alright now . .”  yes Johzeln felt relieved a little bit rest . .  looked at her nodded gave a weak smile . . "good good . ." said Ayhilina to herself . . nodded smiled as well felt relieved restful . . Ayhilina . . however  suddenly . . with a concerned look . . anxiously  looked  at  Johzeln . .  her  eyes now filled  with  troubled anxious look . . Ayhilina . . wanted  to  say . .  however . .  could . . not . . say . . Johzeln  astonished  by  her  sudden  unusual  different  behavior . . looked at . . Ayhilina . . Then . . her silhouette . . lighted  by a golden dusk with palm tree far away suddenly brightly caught  his  very  eyes . . Johzelhn . . walked toward her . . “Ayhilina Are you alright . .” said Johzeln . . gently grabbed her wrists . . kissed her worried forehead . . then slowly lightly went down grabbed her palm . . Ayhilina grabbed as well . . then Johzeln gently went down grabbed her waist . . looked at her affectionately . . then . . deeply kissed her lips . . for a while . . then . . slowly unzipped her zipper front pastely short sleeve . . Ayhilina however suddenly . . abruptly walked  further  away . .  Johzeln . . again   astonished   by  her  sudden  unusual  different  behavior . . seriously   looked   at   Ayhilina . . then  worriedly  called   “Ayhilina . .”   "Johzeln . ."  then . . with  sudden  heavy  tears  in  her  eyes . . took out a piece . . Johzeln . . seriously . .  worriedly . . looked  at  . . it . . with  that . . Johzeln . . was   shocked . . was . . shocked   to  his  heart . . There  he   saw  a  broken  piece  of  a  golden  half  heart  necklace  of  his  Aunt  Yilainah . . “located  it . . right  now  while  I  was  in  her  room . . tried to clear . . her  stuffs  from  spaceship . .” said  Ayhilina   now  with   her  heavy  heart   deeply  saddened  disheartened  lost  . . Johzeln . . appalled . . could  not  believe . . his eyes . . "no . ." could  not . . believe . . it . . “no . . no . . cannot  be . . it  makes   no   sense . .” frantically  cried  out Johzeln . . “Aunt   Yilainah   Always   had   her  necklace  on always . .  Mr.  Farluene  said . .  Aunt   Yilainah   crashed   into   the   wall  when   Aunt   Yilainah  was  in  her  spacesuit  when  other  crews  were  about  to  head  out . . no  way  her  necklace  could  have  cut  in  half  there  is  no  way . .” with   that  Johzeln   dashed   out   toward   her   room . . then   began   to   distraughtly   search   for   her   heart  necklace  in  her  room  . . “Johzeln . .”  sadly  shouted  Ayhilina . . “There   has   to   be   parts   of   her   necklace . . there   has   to  be . .” insanely   shouted   out   Johzeln   as   he   absentmindedly   searched   and   searched   for . . her   necklace . . that   has   to   be . . must   be right   here . . it   has   to  be . . right . . here . . cried out Johzeln . . again and again . .  “Johzeln . .” shouted  out  Ayhilina  . . yet   did  Johzeln  choose  not  to  respond  as  his  mind  was  now  in distraught  chaos  to  desperately  find  remained  parts  of  her  heart  necklace . . because  he  had  to . . because  it  must  be . . it  must  be . . here . . Ayhilina . . looked at Johzeln . . then again . . her heart . . her . . heart . . could  not  take  it . . could  not . . take . . it . . with   that . . Ayhilina  cried out . . “Johzeln . .” as   her  distressed   helpless   state   forced   her   now . .  to  break  into  tears . . Johzeln . . with   his   vulnerable   hurtful   defenseless   endless   tears   deeply   engraved  . . slowly   stopped . . inevitably . .  stopped . . then    helplessly    looked    at . . Ayhilina . . saw  shake  her  head . . Johzeln . . he too shook  his  head  in  denial  in  distress  as he desperately  looked  at  Ayhilina . . then . . with  a  choked   voice . . wretchedly weakly shouted  out . . “Where  is  it  then . .  Where  are  other  parts  of  her  heart  necklace . .” “Is it with her . . Right now . . Cannot  understand . . How  could  it  be . . ”

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4/21/2023

Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . now in his room . . Ayhilina on his lap . . in front of PC . . on his desk . .  Johzeln Ayhilina together . . waited . . for . . then . . did they hear . . “Johzeln . . Ayhilina . .” It was Mr. Farluene . . “How are you guys . .” “We are . . alright . .” An  hour  later . . Johzeln disappointedly said . . “they did not even realize her necklace lost . .” “I know . . that is not understandable . .” said Ayhilina as well . . “yet Johzeln . . as Mr. Farluene said . . because it was a hectic dark situation probably . . sadly her broken necklace could have had . .” Johzeln then abruptly stood walked toward his window . . Ayhilina . . a little astonished . . stood still . . for a while . . then slowly walked toward . . then looked at Johzlen . . saw his side face . . Ayhilina . . then saw his tear . . welled in his eyes . . Ayhilina . . suddenly heartbroken with regret  . . wanted to call out . . yet . . felt a sudden lump in her throat . . Ayhilina bursted into tears . . Johzlen . . astonished by her cry . . hurriedly walked toward Ayhilina then held her tight . . “I . .” weakly said Ayhilina . . “No Ayhilina . . It is alright Ayhilina . . no please . .” Then    Held   her    tighter . .  with   that . .  Ayhilina . . Held   Johzlen  as  well . .  for   a   while . .  they   stood   with  their   broken  hearts  bridged   together . .  then . . looked   at   each    other . .  felt    in    peace   tranquility . .  then    together   they . .  walked   toward   his   bed . . then  again . .  looked  at  each other  . . within  darkness  . . palm tree dusk felt  . .  Johzeln  as  he  lightly  gently  grabbed  her shoulder . .  kissed . .  her  forehead . . as  he went  down  grabbed  her  waist palm . .  then . .  kissed . .  her  lips . . kissed . . for  a  while . .  then . .  slowly  unzipped  her  zipper . .  tenderly  kissed  her  pleasure . .  as   Ayhilina . .   in  sudden  lust . .   slowly  unzipped  his  below . . sat  on  his  bed . .  looked   at  Johzlen . .  then  as  Jozeln . .  turned  on  low light . .  smiled   covered  her  body  with  his  laid  pillow . .  Johzeln   then  gently   smiled . .  walked toward  Ayhilina . .  snatched  his laid  pillow . . then  wildly  laid  beside . .  while Ayhilina  on  top . . of  her  little  world . .  felt  her  wet  blow . .  his  zealous  inhale exhale . .  felt  our  ecstatic  arrival . .  our  dare . . beyond . . journey . .

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Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are very Well & Good For our past few days ^-^

Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too again I Deeply Thank You 

Because I am gonna be a little bit busy due to a couple of ILRC conference paper & business trip for next two weeks on my weekdays Posted a little early ^-^

Time did fly as it always had Thanks to a few of those who view my fictions photos music post which is about You & I nobody else Though I am slow always deeply Thank You for Your Honest Wait You ♡

Again pray for you these days Pray For you to be Happy in Peace because You deserve It However despite your effort to be Happy you oftentimes feel down Please look toward the bright Way Give a little change to yourself your lifestyle ^-^

Head toward Real Life head toward Nature where you could Reflect yourself  Embrace your situation Refresh your mind Be invigorated enliven & Have yourself a Peace of Mind hope for the very Peace of Mind of other people who truly care about You

Life is full of many choices as you know no guarantees Yet there are choices Please Use them Discreetly you will hesitate at first however one step at a time Walk toward change you will be Positively surprised to look Above Beyond your nest ^-^

Those of you who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my heart I Deeply Pray for your Happiness be blissfully Within You throughout Your Journey of Life ♡

Hey You again I was in Nature For past few days There are countless Beautiful Nature we could Fill our eyes yet at that very Time Place where breeze of wind wave of sea was quietly Felt You were within My Heart yes Beautiful it was ^-^

Lifetime of Dreamtime in our undisturbed Nature We together will be For no matter how much the unknown calculated flow of life full of disguised unstable noises try to break us apart 

We are again eye to eye Feel each other for our Destiny still lies in us Like our heart that Deeply yearn no matter where we are for our true feel though not shown in public we know it felt Within Between Us Gratitude ^-^

Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here your Peace is felt near within My Heart as well Yes ♡

Hey You I Wanna again appreciate you For Your honest true heart though I am a little bit slow which is why I wanna wander our shadowy Wild Dreamy Aromatic Light ^-^

Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Real Life from our Past to our Lighted Future for as Time Flies I Remember felt as well that We are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be I cannot ever deny  

Would Be very Gratified for my Near Future to be Like Present Because My present is fully Lighted with Peaceful Joy For You passed on our Light Given to you to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot ^-^

Let’s Always Remember to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon  I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers to You ♡

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇 일간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요 ^-^

언제나  그랬듯  저도  덕분에  안전히  행복히  자연내  현실내  편안한  마음으로  잘  지냈어요  다시 한 번 감사해요  그대

제가 이번 주부터 지금 두 주간 주중에 학회와 논문으로 잠시 출장 일정이 잡혀있어 조금은 일찍 포스트 남겨요 ^-^

그대와 저만을 느끼며 바라보며 쓴 그린 저의 픽션들을 내용자체 있는 그대로를 보시고 있는 분들 언제나 감사해요 제가 늦어져도 변함없이 한결같이 기다려줘 이해해줘 그대 감사해요 ♡

지금 현 시간 저의 이 글을 바라보는 분들 행복한 마음으로 편안히 잘 지내고 있길 간절히 바래요 그런데 혹시 마음내 편안히 잘 지내고 있지 않은 분들 현재 걸어가는 삶의 방향을 부디 천천히 점검해보시길 바래요 ^-^

정신적인 회복이 아직 필요해 보이는 안타까운 분들 보여요 저도 저의 작은 정신분석학적 지식을 토대로 여러 번 관련글을 썼지만 많은 분들이 알고 있으시듯 정신 건강이 위험해 보이는 분들은 도움이 필요해요

비생산적인 단어숫자 글배열순 대한 집착과 온라인에 갇힌 허구적인 반복적인 삶은 위험한 삶이예요 걱정스러워요 앞으로의 자신이 마음깊이 바라는 몇년 뒤 미래를 꿈꾸며 그리며 현실적인 삶을 살아가길 간절히 바래요 행운을 빌어요 ^-^

하지만 지금까지 자신의 삶 편안히 잘 지내신 분들 마음깊이 감사한 일이며 다행이며 앞으로 미래의 삶도 지금과 같이만 잘 살아가길 간절히 바래요 역시 행운을 빌어요 ♡

그대 저도 그대가 제곁 가까이 마음으로 와 있어 마음깊이 행복하며 감사해요 알아요 몇몇 이기적인 장벽들로 인하여 우리가 가까워지는데 시간이 걸리고 있다는 거 하지만 인생은 인과응보 우리같이 분들을 위해 기도해요 ^-^

저도 잘 알아요 우리가 지금 바라보는 그 하늘 역시 이 시간 우리둘을 바라보고 있다는 거 네 깊은 믿음과 바른 길을 걷기 위해  많은 것을 포기하며 절제하며 노력하기 위해 노력하며 살아가는

그림자와 같은 삶의 저 다행히 언제나 최선의 마음으로 역시 끊임없이 노력하며 살아가며 제 곁에  같이있을 그대 있어 그런 우리를 위해 지금과 같이 천천히 가까이 이어줄 하늘있어 마음깊이 감사해요 행복해요  ^-^

우리가 직접 보며 반할 그 날 우리 둘 만의 인생 축복가득 평화가득 은은한 그 빛으로 축복해 줄거예요 저도 좋아해요 그대 좋아해요 ♡

저 그대 아시나요 지금 현실내 안주하며 미래를 직시하며 의젓하고 정직하고 차분한 마음으로 저를 변함없이 기다려 주는 그대가 있어 저 마음깊이 행복하고 감사하고 있다는 거  ^-^ 

가정보단 남을 더 의식하는 사람들이 늘어나고 있는 그리고 이런 행위를 아닌 척 감추며 부정직과 보여주기가 만연이 되고 있는 바르지 않는 안타까운 세계 우리는 그러지 않는 사람들과 같이 믿음내 있어 감사해요 마음깊이 

그대와 저 마음깊이 인연닿을 앞으로의 미래내 우리만의 가정생활 충실하며 도움이 필요하신 주위분들 도와가며 지금과 같이 할일하며 그대 있는 곳 제가 있는 곳 왔다갔다하며 ^-^

느끼며 이해하며 우리만의 삶을 언제나 믿음내 마음껏 즐기며 안주하며 살아가길 저도 바래요 행복해요 저도 제 곁내 건실한 그대가 곁에 있어 행복해요  그대 우리같이 편안한 마음으로 현실내 보내요 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡

5/21/2023

Johzeln In bed . . yet . . felt  himself  awake . . ceaselessly had his mind set on his aunt . . on and on . .  tossed and turned . . Johzlen then slowly changed posture of his body . . turned looked at Ayhilina lied near her body lightly pleasurably hidden by her pillow . . Then . . suddenly . . Johzeln heard a far away low faint noise . . astonished . . Johzeln hurriedly raised himself . . yet then again . . silence filled in . .  tensed . . Johzeln his mind in trouble went near Ayhilina then his palm slowly lightly felt her face her neck then her shoulder . . then . . suddenly . . Johzeln again got astonished by another faint noise . . from outside . . Johzeln now felt chill down to his heart . . yet . . at the same time . . got inquisitive . . Johzeln gradually raised himself again then he cautiously . . turned to the other side of his bed to head toward his door . . slowly did he turn not to wake Ayhilina . . yet Johzeln soon after he was on the other side of his bed . . Appalled Alarmed . . gasped in panic . . to his very heart . . "Aunt Yilainah . ."  voicelessly cried out Johzeln . . yes . . it was his aunt . . outside his window . . again  in lifeless state . . in barren state . . now  near  enough  to  clearly  see  his  aunt  . . Johzeln . . heartbroken in sadness . . tried to walk toward . . yet instantly . . Johzeln . . to  his  astonishment . . saw  her  aunt . . saw  her  aunt . . bruised . . relentlessly bruised . . wordless absentminded by a sudden painful unacceptable encounter . . Johzeln felt his body turn stiff in pain . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” Then suddenly . .  abruptly . . Aunt Yilainah again panted heavily for her breath . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” desperately shouted out Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” dashed toward his window . . yet . . even before Johzeln got near to his window . . to his shock . . her body instantly . . got sucked into space . . her regretful eyes appreciatevely helplessly attached to Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” insanely cried out Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” “Johzeln . . are  you  alright . .” “Johzeln are you . .” Johzeln then . . with a heavy gasp . . with a heavy sweat . . instantly awakened . . “Johzeln  . .” Johzeln . . still  in  heavy  pant . . in a heavy state . . lost in his mind frustratedly looked at Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . .”  Johzeln now in tears . . weakly looked at her . . Ayhilina . . with  that . . hurriedly  went  near Johzeln . . “Johzeln . . “  held  him . . carefully felt  his neck . . to  feel  his  flow  of  pulse  heart  rate . .  laid  his  weary head  gently  on  her   shoulder . .  then  kissed  his  forehead . .  kissed  his   lips . . a kiss deeply felt to give hopeful life . . then as they always had put her leg . . top of his leg . . then felt heartfully his . . halfhearted bracelet . . then . .  looked  out  his  window . . beautiful wind that felt . . no place like home . . angelic sky that felt . .  no place like home . . Johzeln then . . yes . . in  a  weak state . . did he grab Ayhilina . . gazed toward golden dusk with few palm trees far away within its shadow . . Ayhlina . . instantly felt heartfelt tears welled in her eyes . . because felt his weak vulnerable  state of mind . . because his unstable  mindful heart must be cured . . "our  beach  Johzeln  look . . our  beautiful  sunrise  gonna  arrive  very  soon now . . Because no matter where . .  sun is always gonna rise for You I nobody else like our fictions . .” “Ayhilina I wanna tell . .” “Johzeln Please not now . . I know your dream . . yet  now  let’s  feel . .  life  be  thankful  that . .”  Ayhilina  then  tightly  held  on  to  Johzeln  then looked  at  him  within  goodness  his   honest   humble  eyes . . “we   are  here together . .  for   our   good   purpose . .  to   walk  your  way . . fulfill   our  reallife   altruism . .”  then  Ayhilina  tapped  Johzeln  gently  on   his  nose  with  her   little  nose   with   a   little   smile   Ayhilina   then   looked   at    Johzeln . . “yet  after  you  find . . peace  for   you   yourself . .  for  our  hidden  people . .  let’s  pray  together  always . . ” Johzeln . . a  little astonished . . looked  at  Ayhilina . .  Ayhilina  looked  at  Johzeln  as  well  in  peace . .  with  a  smile . .  for  a  while . . Then . .  did  Ayhilina  look  at his halfhearted golden bracelet . . then looked at broken piece of halfhearted necklace . . on his wooden table laid in restfully peacefully . . “remember our bucket list . . journey toward beyond because . . part of your world . . see you again cheers . .”  

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Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are Well & Good For past few days Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too I Deeply Thank You again 

         Pray for you always pray for You to be happy in Peace because you deserve it Yet despite you oftentimes feel down yet Please look toward your bright Future because I truly Believe your future is gonna be Good & Blessful it Is ♡

We know Life is full of choices Let’s use them discreetly as you are now one step at a time Walk toward Yourself slowly toward Your beautiful heart Because You are filled With Potentiality Let’s not deny that

Those of You who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my Heart I deeply cheers pray Your very happiness blissfully be with you throughout Your Journey of Life ♡

Hey You I Wanna again appreciate You for your Honest Wait though I was a little bit slow even though You were busy Yes Lifetime of Dreamtime in our Nature Here we are Together within happiness though far away Thank you again

Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Reallife World from our Past to our Bridged Future for I Remember felt as well that though Time flies within goodness we are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be am not gonna deny ♡

Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here Your Peace is near with My Heart as well please be in peace Thank You to pass on your Light to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot

Let’s Remember Always to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers ♡

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇일 간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요

저도 덕분에 자연내 현실내 행복히 편안히 그대위해 기도하며 잘 지내며 있었어요 ♡

혹시 저로인해 마음내 아프신 아팠던적 있는 분들 저의 걱정스런 마음있어 전해요 편안하신 마음내 있으시길 제가 여러가지 확인도 이해도 많이 느려 그래요 이해해 주길 바래요 감사해요

현 시간 제 글을 바라보며 있는 한 분 한 분 전해요 걱정은 덜 하시구 편안한 마음내 자신이 행하시는 주요일들 마음깊이 바라시는 교제들 이루시길 저 지혜 마음깊이 간절히 기도해요 잘 이루실 거예요 ♡

알아요 저도 우리가 조금은 자주 바라보는 하늘 우리를 지금도 바라보고 있다는거 그림자와 같은 저의 삶내 그대 제 마음내 있어 우리를 위해 천천히 이어줄 하늘있어 언제나 마음깊이 감사해요 

그대 마음내 걱정하지 마시구 앞으로의 할일들 우리같이 미래를 직시하며 노력하며 현실내 마음내 한 걸음 한 걸음 걸어가며 이루시길 바래요 네 ♡

작은행성 지구내 우리 도움이 절실하신 분들 축복가득 기도해요 앞으로의 삶들 우리만의 믿음내 하는 일 최선을 다하며 조언도 해주며 그대와 저의 곳 아름다운 지구내도 여행하며 마음껏 둘만의 쾌락도 즐기며요 

우리만의 같이사는 그생활내 충실하며 어려우신 이웃분들 기억하며 도와가며 살길 저도 바래요  다시 한 번 행복한  편안가득 마음으로 현실내 보내요 같이 마음내 반할 그 어느 날 그리며 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡

5/29/2023

Johzeln  Ayhilina . . Now . . At  a  university  little  far  away  from  home . . Future Research Tech University . . in front of an . . administrator office . . University  where  a  large number of  accepted students  pass to be  space astronauts  like  his  Aunt  Yilainah  . . now to be astronauts entered in Johzeln Ayhilina to fulfill their dreams one step at a time . . There were a group of crowds . . in front of an administrator office . . they were students accepted similar to Johzeln Ayhilina . . It was a university concentrated on major courses mainly in science technology mathematics which are required courses to be an astronaut . . soon after they accepted documents procedures explained to be astronauts which were four years of university masters four years of experience mainly in pilot program space institute . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  gathered  stuffs . . dashed  out . . from  the  heavy  crowd . . then Johzeln shouted  "hey Ayhilina . ."  looked beckoned to Ayhilina together dashed passed line of palm tree toward an undisturbed beach naturally filled in with beautiful wind golden dusk light . . a  minute  passed . . another minute passed . . nearer  and  nearer . . did  they  dash  toward  and  toward  pleasant  beach  where  it felt like  nobody  else  existed  where  it  felt  like  even  beautiful   nature    itself   stopped   to  feel  its  tranquility  within . .  then . . did Johzeln shout . . “deserted lifeguard tower Ayhilina . .” then excitedly dashed toward . . yet door was locked . . Johzlen then . . abruptly . . threw   his   paper   folder   top  of  its  roof . .  then   slowly   climbed   toward . .  “excuse   me  sir  not   ever   meant  to  intrude . .”  “briefly stopped to rest would that be alright . .” Johzeln cautiously whispered . . with sweat flow down incessantly from . . his face his neck . . his shoulder . . then soon after Johzeln reached top Johzeln looked at Ayhilina who looked at him with amaze . . then to Johzeln . . "hey . ." abruptly shouted out . . “here . .” then threw her folder straight out toward Johzeln . . then lightly climbed toward . . then soon after Ayhilina reached top near Johzeln . . threw herself at Johzeln . . then instantly they laid with full joy happiness . . without anybody else . . yet beautiful nature within .  . Then . . they held each other had their little intimacy . . for a while . . then after . . gradually again they felt . . golden sun angelic sky spread in beautiful horizon . . to head on for another unbroken timeless journey . . while it . . gradually . . faded away away . .“Johzeln Are You Truly prepared to study work for years to rocket beyond journey for Ms Leah toward our way beyond  . .” said Ayhilina . . with that Johzeln . . looked at Ayhilina . . “Yes Truly . .” then . . went nearer to Ayhilina . . held tighter . . then felt her wrist . . her palm then said . . "Are You Prepared Truly . .” Ayhilina then wiped his sweat off . . his face his neck . . his shoulder . .“Yes Cheers To Us . .” then . . did they . . Prayed peacefully restfully for . . each other . . swear  they  gonna Root throughout  their  unpredictable road . . embark on their mission  here  on  Earth  before . . Johzeln  Ayhilina . . to find Aunt  Yilainah . . head Beyond . . far far away . . into space . .   incessantly      potentially      stretched       out     toward       its     galaxy    where . .  no  human  would  ever  negate  its  hidden  beauty . .  

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6/11/2023

Johzeln Ayhilina . . Four years have passed . . Both achieved college masters degree in computer science . . Afterwards joined pilot flight drill academy space program at which it educated about aeromedical knowledge flight duties principles of flight rules . . then . .  a week after . .  Johzeln  Ayhilin a  little  early  on  a  beautiful  day . . both  now  professional  aviators . . made  a  visit . . briefly . . to  main space office center  where Aunt  Yilainah  usually  worked  at . .  a  number  of  students work in center to . . learn experience basic skills . . before they prepare for apply to be astronauts . .  Mr Farluene . . colleague of Aunt Yilainah work here  currently nearby . . Johzeln  Ayhilina . . heavily downhearted went toward his office . . where he greeted them happily after they arrived . . they  sent  regards  talked  about their current life for a while . . Johzeln Ayhilina then slowly brought out his aunt into their talk took out her half golden heart that  was  a  part  of  her  necklace  then  painfully  placed  front  of  his  table . . Mr  Farluene  looked . .“Mr  Farluene . .  have  have  you  not . .” “I  mean  have  you  not  had  any  idea . . where  is  half   heart  other  part  of  necklace . . ” stuttered   Johzeln   in   an   unbalanced  sudden  unstable state . . “Johzeln . .” abruptly   interrupted   Mr Farluene   with   heavy  sigh  wordless  for  a  while . .  then    with   another   heavy  sigh  said . .  “Johzeln   told   you   before . .   was   chaotic . . life  death  state  lost  two  of   my   mission  control  crew  members . . ” then   a   minute   of   reticence   wordlessly   passed   its   way . . “it  saddens  me  . . ” abruptly   said   Mr  Farluene  in  a  dejected  tone . . “cared   for   Ms  Leah  it  was  tough  for . .” then   another  minute  of  speechless  reticence  by  Mr  Farluene  . . until  he  said . . “your aunt is  gonna  be  in  our  heart  safe  in  our space Johzlen yet for now it  is crucial to concentrate on your mission that is in front  of  you than dwell on your past . . after  your studies  . . several  years  later head  to  space  with  me with my crew then to . . Ms Leah . .” with that Johzeln . . another  instant  heart break  felt  tears  within  him  then  nodded  hesitantly . . nodded . . with  reluctance  with  doubt . . because because he . . could not . . could not forget about . . his dream no no . .

6/29/2023

Johzeln  Ayhilina . . Four  years  have  passed . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  at  times  failed  exam  tests  yet . . surrender  was  not  their  choice  it  was not . . after years of work . . years of practice . . Johzeln Ayhilina achieved their pilot in command time then eventually got assigned  to . . Alibnehn  Space  International  Corp  to  check  further  skills  relevant  to  astronaut  mental  physical  stability  teamwork ability . . then . . later . .  Johzeln  Ayhilina  prudently  applied  to be astronauts  which  was competitive yet thankfully got invited for interview . . then a few weeks . . passed passed . . night right before result of their astronaut interview . . Johzeln . . a little nervous . . tossed and turned . . then Johzeln felt  himself slowly doze away away . . until . . he felt sudden severe pain on his head . .  unusual unnatural feel permeate  his sense core body . . then to his shock . . Johzeln felt light blood . . on his forehead . . drip drip . . right on his bed . ."no . . no . ." shocked . . Johzeln  turned  to  hurriedly  dash  out . . Then  instantly . . to his  astonishment saw . . saw . . necklace . . Aunt  Yilainah  necklace . . slowly  slowly  crash into . . his wall . . scattered  into  pieces  pieces . . Johzeln Again astonished . . then horrified . . tortuously  screamed in disbelief . . in despair . . grabbed  his  head  in  sudden  gradual  immense  pain . .  then . .  did  Johzeln   feel   himself  crash on  his  floor from his bed . . his  head  bump into a nightstand then instantly . . did Johzeln feel piece . . fall on his head . . Johzeln astonished by an . .  instant   drop . .  came   to  his  senses . .  hurriedly  sat  himself  . . looked   at  a  piece . .  It   was . .  it . .  was . . none   other   than . .  half  part   golden   heart  of   his  Aunt  Yilainah  . .  Johzeln  . . panted  and  panted  . .  then   again . .  panted  . .   Johzlen . . then . . arduously tried and tried to pull himself together . . then . . slowly reached out grabbed . . half heart golden necklace of his Aunt Yilainah . . where  Johzeln  instantly  felt . .  lump in  his  throat . .  then . . tears in his  eyes . . that  he could  not  . . resist . .  could not . . understand . .  Johzeln . . then  . . anxiously looked . . above  . . above its night sky . . far away . .  toward  its  far beyond . . “Aunt  Yilainah . .”

7/7/2023

Johzeln Ayhilina . . thankfully now that both are selected . . to be astronaut candidates . . for about two years . . they are to study practice learn work at . . Alibnehn Space International Corp . . Johzeln Ayhilina gonna learn to be astronaut trainees . . about skills to spacewalk operate international space station fly light jet plane control AI robotic space devices . . then a year later . . with the help of Mr. Farluene . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  were  thankfully  chosen  to  be astronauts to fly beyond within 21 weeks  . . they are both thrilled . . very excited  . . Then one sunny day . . Johzeln Ayhilina walked toward a wide pleasant pastoral . . a wide pastoral which brought Johzeln heartfelt  memories . . where  Johzeln  used  to  try  catch his boomerang whenever his aunt threw for him  ever since he was a little boy . . Johzeln Ayhilina walked walked . . without a word . . then . . Ayhilina abruptly shouted out . . “Johzeln catch . .” Johzeln astonish by her sudden shout out . . turned . . then instantly saw boomerang fly right toward him . .“Johzeln gotta be peaceful whenever a boomerang flies fast head toward you . . take a deep breath . . be prepared of  which  way  you  are gonna  head  to grab it in advance . . am  not  gonna  be  by  your  side  lifetime . . ” Johzeln suddenly remembered yes . . Remembered words . . Aunt Yilainah said before . . with that . . Johzeln . . sudden heartfelt tears felt heavily in his heart . . instantly felt his unstoppable sadness permeate within him . . yet  Johzeln . . instantly tried to pull himself together . . took  a  deep  breath . . straightly  looked  at  it . . prepared  which  way  he  was  to  grab  it . . “Johzeln  you  caught it . . ” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina . . with that  Johzeln . . slowly . . looked   at  . . Yes yes . . he did grab it . . Johzeln grabbed his boomerang . . suddenly Johzeln felt Good . . Johzeln felt . . Blessed . . a blessed feel Johzeln has not felt before . . Johzeln then Blissfully Heartfully called out to Ayhilina . .“Ayhilina catch Me . .” then abruptly dashed toward rays of light ahead . .“Wait . .” shouted Ayhilina joyfully . . to Johzeln . . then did they together dash toward . . toward their hidden narrow path mountain where they went on their very day of prom night . . Johzeln Ayhilina dashed dashed . . passed purely felt mist . . passed fairytalelike forest trees . . passed heavenlike pastelic waterfall . . passed nature light glowworms . . then did they arrive at its cliff filled with tall palm trees like before . . at very top of its mountain where they felt beautiful  refresh seaside wind pass right through them . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . while they gradually caught their breath . . walked . . walked slowly toward van . . van of Aunt Yilainah . . which was still there at its very place . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . without a word slowly walked  toward . . then   did   they   together   slowly   climb   on   top . .  saw   his   blanket  at  its  very  place   yes  . . Johzeln  like  he  did on their beautiful night of their prom . . spread his shaped blanket . . then  together  did  they sat slowly lied down . . on their very place . . then  they  saw . . beautiful sunset sky light captured their wanted eyes . . within their very eyes . . then for a while . . without a word they looked at golden sunlight . . slowly slowly fade . . away . . until beautiful night sky full of heavenly light spread across beyond . .“Johzeln . .” called Ayhilina . . “I  remember  you  tell  me  whenever  Aunt  Yilainah was  in  space . . you would look through beyond  its night  sky  pray  for  Aunt  Yilainah be alright  in peace . .”  with that Johzeln . . for a while did not say . . then without a word . . nodded . .  then . .  Johzeln slowly sat himself then looked at Ayhilina . .“You remembered . .” Ayhilina . . then . . without a word . . nodded looked at Johzeln . . truly within honest belief . . with that Johzeln Ayhilina looked at each other . . truly within honest belief . . got nearer and nearer . .  blissfully  kissed . .  again . .  at their very place . .  right above their land . .  right below its beyond . . where they gonna head . . very soon . . 

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7/16/2023

Johzeln Ayhilina . . Now on their spaceship with others . . Mr Farluene . . include with AI Pilot . . payload commander . . other four mission specialists . . Johzeln  Ayhilina . . after  nearly  in  eight  years  of  Aunt Yilainah pass  in  space . . after  their  arduous work  . .  of trainees . . Johzeln  Ayhilina . . now  soon  gonna   fly . . pray   for  safe flight . .  Johzlen  Ayhilina . . with   gold   with  red  bracelet  on . . his aunt golden half  heart necklace . . with  them . . toward space its beyond to fulfill their mission . .  beyond . .  further  to  find  out . . find out . .

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8/26/2023

Johzeln Ayhilina . . safely lands on International Space Lab Center with Mr Farluene other crew members . . Johzeln . . then on head to a little  faraway  room  which  was  always  used  to  be  his  aunts . . like  he  remembered . . in  a  space  center  map  before  he  boarded . . Johzeln  while  he  slowly  flew  toward  . . Johzeln  suddenly  felt  unnaturalness . . he  then   began  to  feel  his  heartbeat  race . . then a severe  headache . . then  suddenly . . Johzeln  felt  an  uncomfortable  existence  behind   him . .  Johzeln  terrified  held  his  breath  then turned . . it  was  the   commander . . Mr   Farluene . .  Johzeln . .  instantly   felt   relieved . . “Where  are  you  headed . .” said  Mr  Farluene . . then   beckoned   to  Johzeln . .  then   did   they   fly   toward   a   glass   window   looked   outer   space . .   then  . .   slowly . .  did Ayhilina  fly  toward . .  “Beautiful . .” cried  Johzeln  truly  speechless  . . for  Johzeln  remembered  that . .  oftentimes . . his  aunt  used  to tell  Johzeln  how  Beautiful  space  looked  from  its  space  center . . “it  is  beautiful  truly . . Ms. Yilainah . .” said Ayhilina . . with tear suddenly  deeply  welled  in  her  eyes . . with  that . . Mr  Farluene  nodded  sadly . . Johzeln sadly yet happily . . smiled yes felt touched truly  within  his  heart . . then . . suddenly . .  out  of  nowhere . .  did  Johzeln  feel  pain . .  got nauseous . . then did Johzeln hear . . Ayhilina . . Mr Farluene shout  . .  “Johzeln . .” then Johzeln faintly felt Mr Farluene take him to his room . . Johzeln then passed out . .

8/31/2023

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Hello You I Believe without count deeply I no doubt Hope you were Well & Good within my beautiful summer Journey thanks to You yes I am always Well & Good again I ^-^ deeply heartfully thank you 

Because my fall semester began heavy workload ^-^ due to schoolwork business trip prep of my phd paper about Future AI & Environmental Human Rights  yes I am gonna have to post my fictions in autumn 

Those Whose Life Purpose is merely to pursue popularity fame attention money through pretentious arrogant act Humanize because there no Good at very end of your life your way I Pray deeply for near future within your mind

Gratified for my future to be like now without conflict Hey You view my post above 4/21/2023 could not Thank You enough for true you Always by my side Let’s Pray for our Hidden people yes see you soon again I Agree Your Heart Within Us Cheers ♡

안녕하세요 더위가 심해졌던 여름 아무런 방해없이 안전히 잘 불편함 멀리하며 지내셨길 바래요 저도 덕분에 마음편히 ^-^ 지냈어요 

가을학기 시작으로 밀려드는 ^-^ 학교일과 출장들로 AI관련 환경인권 대한 박사논문 작업으로 조금 바빠질거예요 그리하여 남은 픽션들은 가을내 조만간 작성하려 해요

한 사람의 인생내의 목적추구 인기명예 관심돈이며 선한인생 이아닌 척하는 분들 다시 한 번 멀리하길 강조하며 간절히 부탁해요 안좋은 기운들이 느껴져요 기도해요 보다밝은 미래들을 그리며

그대 저 알아요 네 험난해져가는 세상에 그대와저 같이늘 이기적인분 멀리하며 어려우신 이웃들 도와가며 걸어가길 낮은자세 잊지않구 우리들의 현실이 마음깊이 지금같길 4/21/2023 있는 제가쓴 글 다시한번 그대 읽어봐요 그대있어 감사해요 봐요곧네 ♡

Johzeln gradually felt awakened . . Johzeln then out of nowhere perceives a laughter from afar . . faint laughter . . Johzeln unknown to himself slowly felt lifted . . then felt a  headache . . felt  his body weary . . Johzeln yet unconsciously perceived his instinct force himself . . fly toward direction of the laughter . . laughter that grew louder and louder . . from a room . . room  . . across his aunt . . nearer nearer Johzeln flew . . at length did he slowly reach . . then . . did Johzeln slowly . . slowly . . look . . with that . . Johzeln was terrified . . shocked . .

11/14/2023

Johzeln . . was . . terrified . . shocked . . he  saw  was Mr Farluene . . laugh  by himself  talk  to  himself . . Johzeln  was  intensely  petrified . . felt  sudden  goosebumps  permeate . . Mr  Farluene  while  sat  by  himself  looked at  several  screen  constantly  after  then  on  repeat  snickered by himself  eerie  abnormal . . then  suddenly  whispered  to  himself . . Johzeln  was  shocked . .  yet . . even shocker was . . beside  Mr  Farluene . . Johzeln  saw  was . . was . .   

11/26/2023

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Johzeln appalled saw a  . . burgundy half heart necklace . . it was his aunts . . instant tear wordlessly flew outrageous confused heart torn . . it was on his desk . . Mr Farluene . .  Johzeln could not understand intensely confused . . then . . abruptly . . Johzeln heard footsteps . . it was crew astronauts . . Johzeln suddenly remembered it was day for spacewalk . . Johzeln astonished . . hurriedly wiped his tear flew toward his room . . tried to pacify himself from sudden torn scene Johzeln witnessed . .  Johzeln then heard Mr Farluene call Ayhilina him . . Yet Johzeln in shock was terrified by sudden call . . Johzeln tried to pull himself together . . yet . . with no time to rest his heart Johzeln heard him repeatedly yell to assemble . . Johzeln intensely frustrated . . for sudden gnarled scene he faced is now engraved in his unhinged broken heart . . then to his relief . . did  Johzeln  see  Ayhilina . . with  peaceful  smile  Ayhilina  beckoned  him slowly . . with that Johzeln  reposed  managed  to  force  himself  fly  toward  where  they  usually  assemble . .  in  front  of  Mr  Farluene . . Purpose  of  spacewalk . . is to learn  about  space  affects  test  equipment  repair  space  satellites  spacecraft . .  Astronauts  which  included  Mr  Farluene  will  head out  to  space  for  a  spacewalk . . Mr  Farluene . .  unbalanced   behavior . . however . .  less  abnormal  conduct . . after conveyance of strict rules toward his crew astronauts . . head out to space . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  were  not  included  because  spacewalk  requires  further space skills which they are in  process  to  learn  achieve it . . Johzeln  was  seriously  disturbed . . confused about behavior of Mr Farluene . . Johzeln . . after made sure its  spacecraft  door  was  totally  locked  hurriedly  instantly  beckoned  Ayhilina . .  while   he   flew   toward  a  cubicle  where Johzeln  witnessed  his  abnormal   unstable   behavior   a  few  minutes  before . . a  little  astonished  Ayhilina  flew  toward  Johzeln  slowly . .  then    stopped  in  front  of  cubicle  of  Mr  Farluene  where  Johzeln  was   at . . “we   are   prohibited . .  Johzeln . .”   “you believe me Ayhilina . . ” a little astonished Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . slowly  nodded . . with that Johzeln head into cubicle . . rummaged his desk . . after . . looked at Ayhilina . . pointed . . there . . Ayhilina saw a burgundy half heart necklace . . Ms Leah . . voicelessly shouted out Ayhilina . . then . . suddenly . . Ayhilina  hears  a  signal  afar  from  her  room . .  Ayhilina  intensely  confused  anxiously  looked  at  Johzeln . . tear in her eyes . . Johzeln nodded . . Ayhilina  then  after  a   look  at Johzeln . .  hurriedly concernedly  flew  across  . .  Johzeln  left   by  himself . . carefully  anxiously went   inside  . . then   instantly  did  he . .  try  to  reach  out   his   aunt   heart   necklace . . my aunt . . cried  Johzeln  in  tear . . yet . . while he reached necklace did Johzeln mistakenly push a button between screens . . where several screen instantly got turned on . . unnerved by sudden sight . . absentmindedly stepped away . . stared at lighted screen . . Johzeln . . then . . suddenly got appalled by . . a particular lighted screen that caught his eyes . . Johzeln . . intensed . . slowly approached near toward . . Johzeln . . then after was shocked . . inside a screen did Johzeln see Ayhilina zoomed in on camera . . Johzeln  in  fearful  doubt . . looked . . looked again and again . . yes it was Ayhilina . . screen full . . Ayhilina . . Johzelen alarmed shocked instantly called out Ayhilina . . with that . . Ayhilina in a little rush flew toward Johzeln . . Johzeln instantly beckoned Ayhilina then pointed its screen . .  Ayhilina looked . . then . . astonished wordless . . Ayhilina  saw  her room within its screen . . "why  . ."  yet  suddenly . . did they hear a few footsteps far away . . Johzeln Ayhilina severely astonished appalled by a sudden noise from afar tried to push button to turn it off . . yet regrettably instead pushed another button . . where  other  remained  screens  got  turned  on . .  Johzeln  Ayhilina  shocked  by urgent state  tried to find  its button to turn them off . . yet  then  suddenly . . both . . heard  a  struggle . . Johzeln  Ayhilina  astonished  halted . . hurriedly  looked toward struggle  noise  which  was  from  another  screen . . then  abruptly . . absentmindedly  did  Ayhilina utter . . “that  is  my room” . . Johzeln fretful . . nodded . . yet suddenly  within  its  screen . .   half   body  that  was  in  struggle  appeared . .  Johzeln   Ayhilina   deadly  appalled . . it was . . it . . was . . Ms Leah . . yet then suddenly . . body disappeared . . pulled by an unkknown entity . . then instantly . . heard a huge crash . . then . . saw his aunt . . crash into a wall . . Johzeln Ayhilina terrified could not believe their eyes . . then a few minutes . . later . . blood permeated its floor . .  with  that . . in  an  instant . . straight  away . . an entity appeared in camera . . and said . . “should have  listened . .”  then . .   there   appeared . .  Mr  Farluene . . it was . .  Mr Farluene . .  Johzeln   Ayhilina   shocked   to   their  core . .  body  trembled   . .  mind   numbed   heart   severely . .  torn . .  yet   suddenly . .  Johzeln   Ayhilina   heard   a   presence  behind  them . .  Johzeln  Ayhilina  appalled  by  sudden  vice  hurriedly  turned . . it was . . it . . was . . Mr Farluene . . 

12/24/2023

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Johzeln Instantly flew . . toward . . Mr Farluene . . Why . . shouted charged toward . .  Mr Farluene . . Ayhilina screamed flew toward  camera where its headquarter could see . . Ayhilina cried for help . . Mr Farluene . . fastly evaded Johzeln . . then Mr Farluene furiously headed  toward camera hit with his space belt smashed it into pieces . . Ayhilina screamed . . again . . with that . . rapidly . . Johzeln shocked flew toward Mr Farluene . . yet . . abruptly . .  spaceship suddenly began to severely quiver . . Johzeln Ayhilina collapsed . . then . . 

Few minutes passed . . Johzeln gradually awaken yet . . felt himself tied . . Johzeln astonished  abruptly . . shouted . . Ayhilina . . Johzeln suddenly then felt a response near  him . . then . . did he faintly saw . . Ayhilina tied as well . . Johzeln alerted tried to gain his consciousness . . however then . . in sudden horror faintly . . saw  Mr  Farluene . .  front  of  him  Ayhilina . . “approached wrong cubicle lady . .” said  Mr  Farluene . .   as   he   grotesquely  stepped   toward . .   Ayhilina   horrified   began   to   scream   desperately   for   help . . “nobody can hear . .” shouted Mr Farluene even louder with enraged laugh . . with that . . Johzeln . . could  not  take it . . Johzeln cried to  Mr Farluene . . Stop . . However Mr Farluene without stop . . ghastly flew toward Johzeln . . then shouted  glared  in  rage . .“cared about Ms Leah . .”  then  Mr  Farluene  paused . .  “Yilainah  despite  did  not  accept . .” then sadly showed his tears . . Johzeln yet was not gonna be manipulated . . “Stop your pretentious act you murderer . .  my aunt did not have  to . .  you had  no right . .  sexually assault my aunt . .” Johzeln screamed from bottom of his painful heart . . Johzlen then horrified suddenly . . saw Mr Farluene aggressively fly toward him strangle him sneered  at  Johzlen  with  delusional cackle . . “no boy listen . . Yilainah had to like Mr Farluene here . . nobody else only Mr Farluene . . ”  “nobody    force . .  anybody . .  like . .   you   ill  minded   sick   disgusted  criminal . . ”   Johzeln   due   to  a   sudden  strangle  . . heavily   gasped . .  yet  cried  out  helplessly . . 

then  Mr  Farluene  raged  than  ever  strangled   Johzlen  even  harder . . as he made an eerie remark  . . "since you are aware of ill minded sick disgusted criminal behavior of mine . . should do me a favor . .”   whispered   Mr   Farulene . .  then  again  started  to  cackle . . on and   on . .  then    instantly   stopped . .  took   out   a  sharp  cutter . .  "No  . ."  in   horrid   screamed   Ayhilina  shocked  from  afar  Johzeln . . then again . . space station out of nowhere grievously began to quiver then . . lights  got turned off . . sudden pitch darkness filled in  its   space  station . . then . .   suddenly . .  heavy    gasp    was     heard . .   then    followed   Mr    Farluene     words . .   “it    is    your    day . .   to    see   your    aunt . .   send   my   best   regards  . .”   then   it  was   heard  . .   Johzeln  was  choked  by  Mr  Farluene  severely   nearby . . “No . . anybody . . please help . .”  helplessly screamed out  Ayhilina in tear . .  Then afar . . instantly heard several astronauts abruptly  step   in  its space   station . . Ayhilina cried out . . “Please   help . .  please . . help . .”  then  abruptly  did  Ayhilina . . feel severe pain in her  head . . Mr  Farluene   struck   Ayhilina with  his  space belt . . Ayhilina collapsed . . Then . . did Mr Farluene quickly flew to a darker corner . . seconds  passed . . and another second passed . . astronauts carefully stepped in . . then suddenly . . did Mr Farluene wielded . . his space helmet . . toward them . . No . . severely injured . . Johzeln cried out voicelessly . . then . . suddenly . . did its space station quivered heavily again . . then instantly leaned toward its side . . Johzeln astonished instantly . . felt his body slant . . Johzlen then . .  cried  his  heart out . . to make his voice . . reach out . . Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina you . . alright . .” Johzeln then did hear from afar . . Ayhilina weakly cry . .“Yes  . ." Johzeln relieved then heard from afar astronauts awaken . . Johzeln urgently cried out . . “Alright there . . could you help untie my wrist  . . ” with that . . astronauts near him carefully . . tried  to  balance themselves . .  unsteady  from  sudden  strike . . yet  because astonished by sudden  horrrible  incident  they  faced . . a  few  of  them  hastily  flew  toward  Johzeln  through dark slanted narrow hall spaceship . . “we  got  attacked  who  is  it . .”  silently  cried  out  astronauts  while  they  reached  Johzeln to untie its rope . . rest  of  its  astronauts  that  got   struck   by  Mr  Farluene  from   afar  began  to  awaken   cautiously   try   to  balance themselves . . then suddenly . . instantly did  Johzeln  Ayhilina . . astronauts  crew . . in  horror  heard  a  loud  eerie  shout  from  afar . . where terrified  shout  got . . nearer and nearer . . then . . did   they   see . . in  psychotic  rage  Mr  Farluene  charge  Johzeln . . Ayhilina  shocked  by  its  horrible  scene  wretchedly   screamed . . “No . .”  then  instantly . .  out  of  nowhere  within . . did  a  reachable   tether  on  its  near  by  side . . urgently  flew  toward Mr  Farluene . . instantly tied his  ankle . . straightaway tripped him  down . .  let Mr Farluene strike his head severely on the  wall . . then rapidly pulled him toward its space station  door . .  then intensely threw him . . flew him out of its space station . . Then . . with that . . instantly . . lights turned on  . . Johzeln Ayhilina there saw . . burgundy half heart necklace . .  flow right . . beside . . 

8   years  after  its  horrific   incident   in  space . .   Ms   Leah . .  confirmed . . to   be   murderd . .  by   Mr  Farluene . . who  was  a  mentally  ill  stalker who stalked . . Yilainah  Leah . .  Former  Astronaut  Researcher  Academian  to  death . .   got   maximum   sentence   life   in   prison   without   parole . . Yet  because  remained   body   couldnt  be  located  regretfully . .  Johzeln   instead . . cremated . . Aunt   Yilainah  phd  graduate robe  gown . .  copied written phd paper about  issues  of space  debris . .  Ms   Leah   dream   was  to    teach    at     graduate     school     to     spread     awareness  of   space   debris   and  its  crucial  problems . .  yet  now . .   head  to   space  again . .  they  remembered  Aunt    Yilainah . .   pleasantly   told    Johzeln   day . . before   their    farewell  in  . .   their    night   plane   ride . . 'Johzeln  after  I  pass . . like  my  remained  ash . . to  be  slowly  spread . . in  faraway  space  yes . .'  Johzeln  Ayhilina . .  in  tear   flew out . . then blew his aunt . . toward beautiful heavenly space. . Aunt Yilainah Wherever You . . Are Is Real Life. . See You Soon Again . . Amen Rest In Peace . . 

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I Again Thank You 

To Be Continued Soon a little later 1/21/2024

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